i finally finished my homeowrk. ahh. today was a beautiful day. chris and i had coffee with my sis and the kids. than we went bck to the house and the kids went swimming and we bbq'd that was great. we watched payback. last night chris and i watched the secret window. a little freaky in the twisted way (psychotic way) but hey if the broad ( Read more... )

yes a gool ol' 20lbs in 6 months i have gained. its not too bad since i started at a size zero. i know that it could have been worse. i could have been a heffer to begin with. i guess what i am getting at here is i used to be totally in great shape. honestly-i think that the lbs aren't a bad thing/or even the size. however, not this much. my ( Read more... )

i am studying for a midterm for tomorrow morning. i have been studying all day except for the 2.5 hours that i spent at a work meeting. i am excited for the new store and for my new position. my co-workers seem very by-the-book. that is cool cuz now i will finally get a chance to learn what managing is really all about. i just got home from ( Read more... )

last night my b-freind and i took my neice to the thetres. we saw mean girls. yes, a total chick flick-but i actually learned something from it. i have to be able to just let people be who they are even if i don't like who they are being. i realize that if i want to go around in my anger and badmouth them, then that doesn't put me off the ( Read more... )

tomorrow is our one year anniversary!! we don't have any out of the ordinary plans due to the fact that i have a midterm and a full day of school tomorrow and chris has work till 7pm. we think we'll go out for dinner though. we are super happy to be together. he is my angel. he helps me find the sweetness in life. i tend to buzz around so ( Read more... )

there is so much to explain but i will skim across the surface in order to paint thepicture. my dad passed away jan 31st 2004. prior to him passing his friend (who had been squeezing his path into the inner courts for the last three years) and my mother began to establish a "close frinedship"-you know how they cover that shit up...we were only ( Read more... )

i am so irritated. do you ever become so irritated that you phyisically start shaking?-like the aggitaton is finding its ventilation through your skin? 4:45 in the am and still awake. i can't sleep. can't stop thinking about my dad.

wow am i relieved that i just took my Calculus final...yipee i am done! my last final this quarter. actually i will not have a final for a while now since i will be retreatinf from school for the spring quarter. i am going about handling some business. well actually i am going to try to relax...what-you are shocked to hear me have this word in ( Read more... )

yes...it sure did happen and now everthong is different. so strange and cold. i hate the way life is now; and the way the family-or absence of one-is. mom isolates herself. she seems to want nothing to do with us kids. either she just isn't, or she locks herself in her room. i call and sge's on the hter line "taking care of business"-isn't ( Read more... )

well, today is the fifth day that has passed since my dad has passed away. this feeling-of devastation and the uttermost state of disappointment can't even bear to express. as i remain i must think of the momnets throughout my life that i shared with him...and NEVER FORGET THEM...they are all i have left of him. i am thankful for his presence ( Read more... )