I dont think you quite realize how you still hurt me. Its the little things that hurt the most

Looking back at old messages....it just makes me cry a bit. I just wish looking back at things I would have done things a bit diffrent....but such is life.

I cant believe its almost been a year. I hate that I still find myself wanting her. I hate this feeling it just makes me want to cry. I really do still love her and want to be with her. It just still hurts so bad to be near her....she seems so cold to me now. Its like im the plague that she doent want near her. Im trying my best to respect it but ( Read more... )

this is gunna be a hunger strike of sorts due to all the BS of these past weeks....its gunna be a major healing process bringing me closer and more in tune with my self, and to not let the ways of the world and the people in it be able to have so much infulence on my life. The only one who can hurt me is me....its from real inner pain that come ( Read more... )

my heart is broken and theres no one here to fix it

Sooo I got this random email saying if I wanted to reset my password for this sight...what the heck??? idk who would wanna hack my page *sigh* yeah neway.

I was talking to my friend today.....the past came up, and it was werid to me. I really hate talking of such things. Sometimes its just easier to forget the past....it seems to make the hurt go ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I understood my self. Things at home havent been all that great. I wish I could please them sometimes and that they would just let me live my life my way ( Read more... )

my body feels like its withering away.....its gone to join my heart.

Wishing ( Read more... )

This Jenny thing is gunna eat me up for sometime. I cant believe I was lied to for all this time. I cant believe whos shes with. I just cant I cant. Its too much for me. And the way things were handeled tonight. ugh. Im glad Myrna and Chirstina were there but damn I feel so alone. So abused so ugh.The shock of it all is great i dont know what it is ( Read more... )

Two days of doubble shifs. Ugh It was so hard. 1 to 10 it was hectic. These days have made me a bit sad. As werid as it sounds I kinda like the way the boxes cut me. Her words had stung me so bad. I wantted to die. The fact that ive had so many hugs has been a world of comfort to me....though these people did not know how much they ment. I really ( Read more... )