Its harder to see sad eyes when all is black in white. Is there anything left in me? I dont know how much more I have left to give. Everything in my body hurts. It fucking sucks that im never good enough for anyone. Why is it that im never the one chosen.....why does it always have to be a choice ( Read more... )

Cant sleep though i'm so tired. My two day migraine finally subsided though im still a bit naushious from it ( Read more... )

Another one of those days. Choices seem pointless. Though points of laughter seem to make it all not matter.

Adorableness was the word to describe it.....it made me smile
Likeness of it....made me laugh inside

Simple flirtations make the world go round. Put your head on my shoulder and we'll make them all wonder.

to breath

its cold.....my body aches and im just ugh.

I wanna sleep so bad yet once again i cant. Its to darn cold and im the only one in the family with out a heater

Im pissed as hell at my day cuz people are jerks.....and im so damn disappointed in Her. Ugh to the millionth power!

I'm trying to sort through all these feelings ( Read more... )

Sometimes I dont want to be strong. I just wanna crawl in a hole and hide till my problems go away. My doctor wants me to have surgery again and im so damn scarred cuz its more major than last time. Part of me just wants to scream and cry cuz they cant figure out why I keep getting this. Im going to see another specialist before I call the surgen ( Read more... )

never good enough for you

a closed heart will never know love

wishing you would see me.....knowing it will never be

trying to show you I care

trying to show you me

Tired of being used

A nice person is always screwed over.....so tired of it.....why is it that only jerks find love

never was good enough....it was all an illusion

I died a little tonight. My heart feels like its in pieces. I want to cry, scream,cut anything to make it go away....I want to have never opened up ( Read more... )

*sigh* I'm here sitting in bed all dressed up with no where to go. I'm being stood up. I'm not sure what exactly this is that I'm feeling. Is it more sadness than being hurt?? What should I have expected? I should have known better than to trust, open my heart even if just a little. I was excited thinking I was going to be able to see him. I had ( Read more... )

I was with her again today. Part of me feels bad inside.....I know he tells me that he understands. I feel like though I'll just wind up hurting him if he really knew it all. I don't want to loose him.....I like waking up in his arms and feeling safe like no one can ever hurt me again. But will I be the one to hurt him? *sigh* idk what it is im ( Read more... )