Close your eyes and I'll kiss you ( Read more... )

can't fall asleep... even though im exhausted. Just basically wore myself out the last 45 minutes or so since i got off the phone with ryan... don't ask. Not the phone convo, it was fine, short but fine. I'm exhausted but can't sleep and I'm trying to distract myself. I think being alone so much has gone to my head and caused me to think crazy ( Read more... )

Ever feel like you're talking and no one can hear you? Or maybe its just that no one really cares to listen? What ever it is, it seems like I haven't been able to say everything that I've wanted to say the past few weeks. I think of a lot of things to say, I just don't feel like people really want to listen. For instance, I know when I listen ( Read more... )

Now that I've unpacked, visited ryan, gone to nyc.... I'm so bored. I really only needed a week at home, now I'm done. Can't I just take all my friends and go back to school but not do any work yet? Im a perfect world, maybe... but instead I'm stuck here with grandpa. Don't get me wrong, I love grandpa, but when he starts getting more phone ( Read more... )

I'm so hungry!!! well not really hungry, but I really want a cookie... I shouldn't cause I cheated today and had one... oops... but I still want one, I really love cookies.

I miss ryan too... its gonna be a long summer... but I'm gonna see him tomorrow! For like 4 days!! I can't wait!!

<3

day 5 of studying and this sucks.... a lot. I don't know how many hours I've spent at the library but i hate this place. I want to sleep and not care about this anymore but i have about another day and a half of caring then 4 months of not giving a shit. Sure I'm not doing very well but whatever. I just want this semester to be over and move on ( Read more... )

Just two of my favorite feel good songs ( Read more... )

So like a week and a half until i go home. I'm happy for a 4 month break and I'm happy to go home, but i am going to miss it here. I'll be back in july but its not the same. See, I'm gonna miss Ryan. Yeah I'll see him, but not very much. Hopefully more than I think I will. He's supposed to come on vacation with us at the end of June, and I'm ( Read more... )

I can't focus to study... so I'm gonna take 20 minutes just to cool down. Not bad cool down, I mean I'm not mad or anything, I mean literally cool down, its gotta be near 100 degrees in here! So I'm letting my body temp cool down. It sucks that everytime I come in here I have to strip down to shorts and a tank top and then can't do anything ( Read more... )

so I do only write in here when I'm upset... but whatever. I'm having a bad week... this sucks. I'm stressed, tired, and want school to be over. Even still, I don't want to go home and I don't want it to be next semester. So basically I don't know what I want. I angry, but I can't tell at what. I guess I just want to be in control and I can't ( Read more... )