i disappeared for a few years, sorta. now i'm back, sorta. 

tired of the internet, without the time of compulsion anyway....

drinking coffee in bed, threads of poetry on scraps of paper, kissing till it hurts, having fallen devastatingly in love.

go ahead and fucking live in your selfmade universe.... get scared enough to be willing to lose everything-get yourself completely off the map- start to live ( Read more... )

i feel transported in time.....the past, the best of the past moments are being relived in the crystalline detail of obsessive nostalgia.... being gone and shedding thick layers of skin has changed the climate of the universe.

it feels like a year ago, when we were all happy and worried and pure and untried....back when my friends used to still

life slowing down to the pace of a heartbeat....so many people to miss and wonder about, too few days to spend....
will be back in houston around the third, and leave for home again on the eighth...five days isn't much, but hopefully i'll be able to see some of ya'll and catch up..... email me if you know the address...

the sun set shortly after 6:30 pm. what the holy fuck?
i'm sick, it's cold, and there's a giant bloodclot between my legs. fuck.

remembered i still have this damn thing. there's still people on the list? gotta go back and lock a bunch of entries i forgot are still semi public domain, crap. remember all these years i've been swearing and bitching that life would begin as soon as i got THE HELL OUT OF HOUSTON? hand on forehead melodrama about that soulsucking town and its ( Read more... )

i'm in a great mood. it's awesome. i've been taking long walks downtown, looking at things, talking to things....
i feel really happy, in an intangible way, enjoying small pleasures and taking really deep breaths.

i love having the luxury of alonetime :)

last nite mir handed me a doubleshot of straight everclear in a glass, and i downed it like tequila. like a man. like a man making hideous girly faces. five minutes later, my dinner was splashing onto the sidewalk. moral= if you know you're a wuss, don't even try it. drink your everclear mixed ( Read more... )

gotta get. that. dirt off my shoulda ( Read more... )