i think i'm going crazy. so somebody correct me if i'm wrong. if i'm in love with someone, who's in love with me, who i also shared something very special with, decides along with me to date other people because of the distance, should that include sex? most people should know my views on sex on how i even wanted to save myself for marriage, and ( Read more... )

so i'm on a brink of a mental breakdown, which i guess should be expected, it happens whenever i come back to maine from new york. just nothing is working out. nothing. job, school, money, greg, nothing. it all fell apart.

i'm in english class right now. bored. no one to talk to. nothing to do. writers block ( Read more... )

i'm tireddddddd. i have so much shit to write for english, and i've gotten maybe 4 hours of sleep the past few days put together. all i wanna do is take a nap but people wont let me, between actually having friends up here, and some friends in other states wanting to speak to me (ofcourse only when i'm busy)

i love how easy it is to say things, and not do fucking anything to show it. i guess thats my fault for trying to be so simple. i don't give or play any games, so i don't expect them to be played on me. but, thats easy when it's happening a couple thousand miles away. another leason i need to learn ( Read more... )

okay, so i've been bitching a lot lately in my journal. and usually i try not to, because nobody wants to hear it. but i've just about had it. i am fucking sick and tired with people having free rides in life, whether it be people living off the fucking state, or having mommy and daddy pay for fucking everything, saving tens of thousands of dollars ( Read more... )

so my mother lent me the remainding cash she has before getting paid (it's a rough month because all my parents income is going to my sisters fucking hofstra tuition, but thats a different story)

so yay! i have now -$9.58 instead of -$65.58 in my checking account, i start working finally on tuesday, so, i just might catch up with all my bills

i haven't updated or even looked in livejournal in a long time. i wont get into why, because theres no point in starting pointless drama.

anyways, i'm here and alive in maine. without a job. and with maybe one friend because people dont seem to believe in friends without being fuckbuddies up here.

oh well.

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so both my siblings can't help me on the 19th when i'll have no place to go until the 25th

and everybody else has a different story, like "oh we're already having visitors staying over those days" blah blah blah

i didn't think i'd know what it would be like to be homeless

atleast it's only for six days