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71 monthsIn a month it's going to be 6 years. SIX fricken years. Hard to believe really... I remember this month 6 years ago like it was yesterday-- the ICU time, dad deteriorating... really sad ( Read more... ) -
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Haven't dreamt of dad for the longest time and i did last night ...but it was kinda a sad dream because he was sick and was relying on me. I remember hugging him tightly and wishing i could do something for him... it was a really brief dream but i remember that i was in spacious building and there were other people there as well ( Read more... ) -
Wrote earlier this year.. for 5 years commemoration...
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60 years old had he been alive...
Birthday wishes to heaven.
We're going to the cemetery today... Not going to work...
hopefully it won't be so cold. (Always colder up on the hill though...)
But it seems like it's always cold now without dad around. I just wish i could achieve more to make him proud of me in heaven...
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It was 68 months on Sunday... haven't brought flowers yet but intend to when my dad's b-day is this coming Sunday...
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and life kinda sucks for me...my motivation level has gone so down...i dunno what to do. -
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missing feelings come about more when you feel depressed about yourself.
I just with i could be half the person my father was... 24+ years into living, doesn't feel like i can be.....
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I wish dad were here...
i miss him a lot these days because things aren't going great with my life at all. I can't do what i like to do without screwing up, can't seem to do what i want to do in life because my incompetence... i feel very lost and don't have anyone to talk with.
I just wish Dad were here again. -
65 months on Aug 11th
Just got back from China...
but i remain thinking a lot...(though i didn't manage to bring flowers this 11th :( )
need to go to cemetery soon with the family. -
5 years and one month...
61 months today.
Brought flowers on Monday...
studying (or should be) fro my second orgo test....
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I think this is what i'm missing...
A little contemplation about today's commemorative service ( Read more... )