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TL;DR Part 2
So i got through Christmas and now i just have my Mother's birthday in a few days. After that, i don't see any big important dates being too tarnished. i've begun going to bars for Shirley Temples and some crazy notion that a girl will walk up to me and say all the things that need to be said. i'm so fucking lonely and i have tried everything short ( Read more... ) -
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The timer has started. These are my thoughts.
Thought Number 1. Albert Einstein is credited, falsely, with defining insanity as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I've been continuing to live, lying to myself that it will get better, and expecting different results. The fact of the matter is mylife will never ( Read more... ) -
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"There is a very popular opinion that choosing life is inherently superior to choosing death. This belief that life is inherently preferable to death is one of the most widespread superstitions. This bias constitutes one of the most obstinate mythologies of the human species"
-MITCHELL HEISMAN
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...the world is hopeless
It has been a while. Too long.
What brings me here tonight? The following story:
I have recently become engulfed in the world of Virtual Reality. More specifically, Bigscreen. I have been hosting what I think of as a "Safe Space" for people to hang out and it has been going okay, but it is depressing how difficult it is. It is depressing to know ( Read more... ) -
...at the moment
it has been a while. still depressed. still lonely. still want to be not living.
hoping i get financial aid money. having some enrollment problems with school. when i do get money, i will probably pay for sex and take Minerva tot he vet for a check-up.
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i recently hit a brick wall. it is as though my meds simply stopped working. depression is often described as no longer enjoying the things you like to do and that is me. i hardly touch video games. i just watch TV all day. what is odd is my craving for human interaction. so much so that i paid a sex worker to hang out with me for 30 minutes ( Read more... ) -
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im not going to bother visiting. fuck it. -
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i am soooooooooooo tired but have one more class to get through ( Read more... ) -
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i'm in a car underwater with time to kill... -
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i can't be her friend anymore. i just can't. everytime i think of her, i get so incredibly angry. i resent her ( Read more... )