I really don't know what to do. When he came over he held me. It melted everything away. I've never known anyone to make me feel better the way he does. Which is kind of funny considering he's the one that hurt me. He wants to come over tonight, not to stay..just to see me. We decided the last time he was here to take a few days and think about ( Read more... )

"When we first got into this I knew I'd have to sacrifice you, to do what I do...and I'm dealing with that"

The real question is....can I sacrifice you, so that you can do what you love?

and sometimes,when you're in someones arms...you just know.
I feel nothing but hope.

I know this song is about god..but it just fits

"You Are My Hope"-Skillet

Times are ( Read more... )

 *sigh*
I just get these random bursts of "fuck..."
yea...
This blows.

"Say Goodbye"-Skillet

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting ( Read more... )

So...we broke up.
I gave him the letter.
I sat there while he read it.
I watched every facial reaction he gave.
He looked at me and said "We need to talk..."
Apparently he has been thinking about all that stuff too, he was doing the same thing I was.
Sitting on it until it became so sharp you had to bring it up.
It just sucks I have a more sensative butt ( Read more... )

So I took the advice of some friends and finally wrote down what I was feeling, a letter to my pup. I'm afraid to give it to him..but this is what it said, if you wanna read it...

( Letter To A Love )

Okay, so ....I dont know. *rubs eyes* This weekend blew. Friday night I stayed in, and slept. Saturday I went to Collin's on the way there we got into a fight, I finally got him talking to me again at the pizza shop when we stoped to get dinner. When we got to his house, the power was out. I was glad, figured we'd talk or play games. He really ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm in class, we haven't started yet, and I have alot on my mind and i'm really unsure of where to begin. So Bleh. haha. Besides once I start idk when I'll stop and class is starting soon, so I guess I'll give you a polite small-talk entry. I'm good. Things with collin are okay, even tho we've been talking less. I'm not comming into school ( Read more... )

"Again and again we bend until we start to break..."

I feel like I'm breaking, and I'm starting to make stupid mistakes.Very very stupid mistakes that could really end everything I've worked so hard to build. And I'm doing them all for the wrong reasons. You're just never around when I need you, and I feel aweful because I can't be there when  you ( Read more... )

So, tomorrow is my birthday! Big fucking woop,right? Uh, it just makes me feel older and more useless and I'm what..19? Idk, I feel like I'm missing out on so much...

I also found out today that my uncle is suicidal. *sighs* He has a two yearold baby girl, and two boys. One older than me and one younger. My uncle isn't exactly my favorite person, he ( Read more... )

Did you ever hold someone in your arms and realize exactly how much you love them and need them? Ever lay there listening to their heartbeat as they are sleeping, just wishing to have it be like that every night until the morning? Ever lay there, head on their chest crying because you know you could never have the forever you want? Thats how my ( Read more... )