Its been a while since i wrote in this thingy so heres an update. Im enrolled in a trade school/college out in sacramento california, Im doing much better over the whole me and mandie thing. I just met someone pretty nice and swell. I work with my dad doing construction which sucks but it pays well and gives me a great tan and an ok physik. Umm. So ( Read more... )

ok yeah so last night, I got slightly upset and very drunk, at a bar in trenton. and proceeded to punch a hole through a picture frame. the bartender asked who did it, at which point I came out of the bathroom to fess up, only to be knocked out cold by the jack ass. apparently i was out for 20 some minutes. the first thinig i remember after the ( Read more... )

Where to begin? It's always the same old song. You just hear it differently, It impacts you differently depending on your outlook and your expieriences. it differs between person and it differs between time. the song you hear one year will be heard differently a year later. Because everything in that year that has happened to you. Is now added to ( Read more... )

So last night I finally got what ive been asking for for so long. and that was a conversation with mandie. It caught me completly off gaurd and spun my head around until it was five miles up in the upper atmosphere of space. but we talked. we talk ed about how we were and where we were going. She reiterated the fact that she doesnt want me in her ( Read more... )

Its getting easier, and at the same time not. Theres so many little annoying things I do that I cant let go. I get my hopes up for seemingly nothing. I look for her car everywhere I go. Even when i come home i look to see if for some reason shes here, to talk, to indulge me in this fantasy of conversation I have. Im constantly checking my mail, my ( Read more... )

thats how i feel. about everything. Its so depressing to think about it. I loved her, and she loved me. and we were happy, we had our problems but I saw us working through them, I really did. I broke it off briefly because I wasnt sure, but than I was, but than so was she. and she was sure it wasnt with me. We used to make love, and I felt like we ( Read more... )

Kind Woman
Buffalo Springfield

I got a good reason for loving you
It's an old fashioned sign
I kinda get the feelin' like mmm you know when
I fell in love the first time.

Kind woman
Won't you love me tonight
The look in your eyes

Kind woman
Don't leave me lonely tonight
Please say it's all right

Remember once before you're hearing
The old folks say
Love's an ( Read more... )

A knack for taking like 10 months between updating this empty piece of crap. but whatever moving on, haha right. so I have a shit load of preperations to be done within the next 3 months. I Need to get a new job that pays a lot of money I need to stop going out at all. not that i do that very much anyway but still, any penny counts here, car fixed ( Read more... )

just got home from the horror pops show at the troc with mandie friggin awesome nuff said

blah blah so yeah nothing exciting to report i just got mandie this pimp as purse that just says "fuck you" in a heart its pretty cool. mandie and shania are currently arguing with each other on which one has the more boring life. grrr.