it's officially been a whole month since the last time i saw cristóbal. it's been really hard and really sad, but at least i feel like if we can get through the last month then we can get through however much time it takes before we can be back together. and it comforts me to know that even after a month apart and after being half the world away i ( Read more... )

it's weird to think that so much can change over the course of 4 months, and it's even weirder to look at my life up until now and see how everything that God has done in my life has helped to lead me up to where i am now. for once i don't know where exactly my future is heading or how i'm supposed to get there, but at least i know who i want to ( Read more... )

it´s been a long december
and there´s reason to believe
maybe this year will be better than the last

i can´t remember all the times i try to tell myself
to hold on to these moments as they pass

i feel like i haven't been happy at all for 3 weeks. i don't even want to get out of bed in the morning. and being in memphis isn't helping. just when i thought i was starting to feel better i went with my mom and grandmother this afternoon to look at an alzheimer's care service for my grandfather. i thought i would get through it okay but as soon ( Read more... )

i´m tired and i´m obsessed with internet cafes and i wish my friends were here with me. i´m having lots of fun, but the whole party scene gets old when it´s every night. as much as i LOVE barcelona, it´ll be nice to get to madrid and settle down somewhere for a little bit ( Read more... )

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to goi can't believe i'm leaving tomorrow; it's so surreal. 48 hours from now i will actually officially be living in spain. i don't think it's hitting me yet. or maybe i' ( Read more... )

and all i need to know is that i'm something you'll be missing

my last 24 hours in sd were busy, but well worth it:

1 pm. drove to raf's new house in pb. hung out there for a few hours with him and his sister and random people.

5 pm. up to carlsbad to joe's <3. went out with him to eat sushi and play pool at our usual hang out spots.

9 pm. down to ocean beach to see mollie's new house. lied around in her ( Read more... )

this week has been amazing. i'm so glad i got to spend so much time with the people i love being with before i leave ( Read more... )

last night was so much fun. i haven't seen sinai beach play in ages! and we got to be cool and hang out backstage at the glasshouse. haha. davey was hanging around again after the show, so we decided to get a picture with him. good times ( Read more... )