i went to johns graduation tonight. my baby boy is finally done. i got to hung out wiht jeremy, matt, john, paige, and jake. it was really nice. i love those kids. john paints really realyl well. im really amazed. i want his picture of cedric bixler zavala. i met the coolest person ever. her names claire. super cool. totally cute. i borrowed the ( Read more... )

well i skipped yesterday and it was fun and i skipped today and it was ok. i wanna go to pensacola. they have really cool people. itd be nice.i need a change in scenery.

im not well. im not well at all. i wont be well. its not getting better. i had a mental breakdown last night. accompanied wiht panic attacks and memory lapse. im not well.

well this week i read to books. survivor and the perks of being a wallflower. i suggest these both. but i really want to talk about the perks of... i think it was the first book i ever really got trapped in. i really liked it. i never really could relate characters before. but this was different. i felt so many emotions. i read emotions that i ( Read more... )

december 7th 1941. the day japanese forces attacked the usa. a day that will live in infamy forever.

april 16th 2004. my pearl harbor

school is almost over. as the summer approaches i wonder how it is gonna turn out. usually right before a summer starts you know if its goning to be good or bad. you have some general idea. this summer. well this summer has got me puzzled. so much has happened right before th summer. so much in fact it drove me to the point of temporary insanity. ( Read more... )

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

life goes on, why should i try. im pretty happy. nice new updates in my life. very nice

the end. shes gone for good. blocked my sn and all. as cursive sayes in the great song "the martyr" "depression sets in" but i have to be strong. i have too. i have frineds. thanks. id make a list of people to think but im sure that would end up getting me in trouble. my last list did. i love brihgt eyes. all his songs relate to my life somehow. ( Read more... )

to any of you who read the last entry before it was edited sorry. id love for everyone to express there hate for me. so if you hate me please tell me. id love to hear it. i worry about people. i try to make peopel how i want them to be. i think if peopel have problems they need to fix them. i want everyone to be happy. i hate seeing peopel hurt ( Read more... )