I am bored with every aspect of my life, and I'm not sure I want to bother anymore.

Work has been rough. I have a truly terrible manager, who doesn't really understand how restaurants work. When people try to explain things, she freaks out on everyone. It ruins the flow of things, and makes nights harder then they have to be for everyone involved. I also called in for the first time in several years, because of car issues ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm doing, but I need to figure it out fast. I can't keep doing this.

Little things that I used to hate, I find myself loving now. Holding onto. I'm losing my resolve, and I'm unsure what to do. It's been month now, and I went through a lot of emotional changes. Anger, sadness, insane lust. Now I've balanced myself out, and while I'm very angry with myself, I've also found a very strange calm. I've been working ( Read more... )

Talked to Lauren last night, and it was made very clear to me that we won't be getting back together. Apparently, it should have been clear to me a while ago, and I misunderstood. I get it now though, and feel like an ass. So, I'm done.

I'll be staying with some friends for a while, so this may be it for a while. Thank you for all the support.


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I've made a mistake. I can not put into words how much I regret it, but now it's to late for all that. This is my life.


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The A.C. is broke, it's 80+ in the house, and it's making me so sleepy. Normally I'd just nap for a bit before work, but I've been going through an insomnia phase for the past couple weeks, sleeping three or four hours a day ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my last day off, back to work today. Joy of joys. I have a deep loathing of my job. Not just the shitty money, or the lack of benefits, but the amazing talent we have for staffing the most useless people, and patting them on the back for getting out of bed in the morning. I don't understand ( Read more... )

Jesus, it's been a while since I've done anything with this. I'm not going to bother catching up on everything that has passed. Just trying to keep up with my day to days for a bit. Get things out of my head ( Read more... )

My life sort of confuses me. I'm.. restless? I'm not sure. I lack content. I was working 60 hour weeks for a few months, and that made me content. I'd bust my ass, and come home tired and hurting, knowing that I had to wake up in the morning to another 13 hour day. Rest up on thursdays, play with the Lauren. Now a cap has been put on my time, and I ( Read more... )