So one of my friends here at work who is studying to be a counselor gave me a test that she was given to see whether or not she was depressed. The results?? It seems that I scored the highest bracket possible: 30+ = Extremely severe depression.

I was pretty sure I knew that already.

But isn't that interesting...

A slice of Thai chicken pizza for lunch. Yum!

Seeing people in the hallways and having to say hi to them makes me uncomfortable. I've never ever enjoyed it. Not in middle school. Not in high school. And not in college. There's never enough time to be genuine. It's all irritating pleasantries shared by people who usually could give two shits how you're doing. Flashing that fake smile and ( Read more... )

I just want to be me again ( Read more... )

I met this guy yesterday. It was at an audition. He was there to help the director out. The problem is...I don't remember his name or why he was there. It was weird. I mean, he's cute but he's totally not my type, but there was just something about him. Everytime he spoke, I became more and more attracted to him. His intellect or perhaps ( Read more... )

I feel so over it all! Or could it possibly be that I feel all of it's over me? I don't know. All I know is that my life is lacking excitement. I need to feel refreshed. It is time for my life to start picking up momentum in a new direction. This bitter air tastes comfortably stale. I don't want to be comfortable. I need to feel challenged ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm constantly being attacked. Like I have to defend and explain every single tiny thing I do. Maybe that's why I've been so tired. Always having to provide anyone who asks with the why's and the how's. Why can't people just let me be? Always judging. Always asking me why this or why that. Giving me those awkward glances tainted ( Read more... )

ACT Class went well.

Missed the auditions.

Couldn't get into the Erykah Badu concert cuz Ticketmaster is a fucked up organization.

Buffy was pre-empted for some stupid UPN show.

That's my life...

Things to do tonight...

1) ACT Singing class

2) Auditions for Bruce Thunderkiss musical (don't exactly know who Buce Thunderkiss is. He's apparently some old rock star)

3) Erykah Badu concert at the Fillmore

4) Watch new episode of Buffy when I get home

It should be a pretty good night. Filled with things I love. Let's keep our fingers

I don't know where I fit in anymore.