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A Poem Inspired by a fist
Pulsating from the depths
Pulsating sensation that is lip numbing
Pulsating with a slight pain
Pulsating that makes my knees tremble
Pulsating finding my words
Pulsating as his fingers slide fully into my depths
Pulsating as moans slip between my lips
Pulsating as my body aches
Pulsating as my depths feel full
Pulsating as my lips move wanting the words ( Read more... ) -
Happy dance
I got my binders in the mail today. I was so excited I danced around the living room. As I pulled one of the binders over my head and had some assistance to pull it all the way down I became more comfortable. I put on some cloths that I hadn't worn because they were to tight. Now those cloths look good on me. My only issue now is on those small ( Read more... ) -
Done With Work Training
Training is finally done for work. I’m so excited I don’t have to be at work in the morning any time soon anyway. I can start working my regular shift and maybe even get into a routine. I am really getting frustrated though that they don’t know about my transfer. I have a feeling that I’m going to loose all my seniority and my benefits. If this ( Read more... ) -
New
I have been chewing on the idea of wanting to be in service and the difference between pleasing. I haven’t really digested it yet the thoughts that I have are pretty raw I hope tomorrow or Thursday to have posted about it. To allow myself a little more time to clear my thought out about the differences.
The past few day I have felt a lot more ( Read more... ) -
Time
I have been pretty lost as to what to write in these journals. I need to balance my time a little better with chores and writing journals everyday. I have fallen behind in journals. I want to apologize Sir for not staying up on my journals I will do my best to allot enough time to write journals every day.
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Bored
Today at work I was really bored. My mind kept drifting off to things that I could be doing around the house like: finishing up the yard, painting the poles, nailing nails back in the floor, Murphy oiling the floor, measuring the banister, and many other things. Instead I was at work twirling my fingers trying to seem interested in this training ( Read more... ) -
Love of a former Fear
I thought I would hate needles. Ohh contraire! I like them a lot. My built up anxiety about needles was one that I truly didn’t need. For the most part I didn’t even feel the needles slide in. With Sir’s graceful hand it was like spreading warm butter over bread. It just glided right in like it belonged in my skin. After the first one I relaxed. I ( Read more... ) -
Lost My Head
The other day I asked Sir if it was ok if I masturbate. I wondered this because for several months I have been asking permission to come. It was on my own accord that I willingly offered that control to Sir. With this contract I wasn’t sure if I still needed to ask because I remember Sir saying that masturbation was healthy. In the contract it is ( Read more... ) -
History of Needles
My history with needles has been minuet. I have a few permanent piercings. I enjoyed getting those piercings and hope to get a few more piercings. I would say that the needles that Sir does I have never had any experience in having those done on me. I have had needles that were used for small blood test, almost like a diabetes test, used on me at ( Read more... ) -
upset
My heart sank when I heard the words come out of Sir's mouth that his mentor Devioune would not be coming to the wedding. It may have caused me a little anxiety before knowing that he was coming because I would want to be perfect for Sir to let Sir ummm show off a little. I really wanted to meet Sir’s mentor to see who taught Sir. Devioune is the ( Read more... )