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So I have started another contract Im glad to have another opurtunity to serve Sir and learn from him and Yona. I have also started thinking more in the absolute of starting T. I am on the waiting list for the Y to start consuling. It was very funny that they offered me to go start into the assesment to get my script for T. I was shocked with ( Read more... ) -
thoughts
Im scared!! Im not scared because of the contract coming up Im scared because I have been thinking more and more about transitioning and starting the process to get on T. I know what the steps are to this process I'm terrified to take it though. There are a lot what if's going on in my head. What if this isnt the process for me. What if it flips my ( Read more... ) -
Reflections
I want to start out with a great analogy that I thought of at the “bottom's” meeting the other night. It went kind of like this; doing well in my service is like finding my bottle of water. It quenches my thirst. I know that I still have several miles to go in training. In this contract I have learned what should be done when your Trainer is ( Read more... ) -
Stuned
When I think of romantic involvement between people I think of deep kisses, holding hands, deep looks, and so many other signs of love. Love to me is just a deep passion for someone or something. So I have been thinking about what happened earlier today how I was shocked by Sir at first because of the bite/kiss that was given to me. I was in ( Read more... ) -
What to do when your Trainer speaks to you
First I would like to make a formal written apology for my mistake. I am sorry, Sir, for my rudeness and disrespect when you called for me earlier today and I did not respond immediately. I will listen more carefully in the future to avoid such disrespect.
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Thoughts on the last month and the first contract.
I have learned many lessons in the past month, some of which I don’t even think I am aware of yet. I realized early on that I don’t need to be cocky to go far. Cockiness is not always attractive, it’s confidence that makes someone attractive. I have become more aware of my emotions. I am still working on not stifling them but that process will take ( Read more... ) -
aspects
So I have been thinking about all the different aspects between Sir and I. There is the trainer trainee dynamic. I am so honored to have the opportunity to learn from Sir he has so much knowledge at times I feel overwhelmed by his knowledge needing to just let it soak into my brain. Also he has allowed me to learn from Yona who is absolutely ( Read more... ) -
Short
The past couple days have been busy. I have enjoyed them but my journals have been MIA. It’s not that I don’t want to do my journal. It is just that I feel that I should give them adequate time to be able to write a little more in depth thoughts on some topics that I have been discussing with Yona.
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Service in Simple
Service to me in simplest terms is doing what will benefit Sir.
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Thoughts
I have been thinking about how I will handle talking to someone whom I might have a relationship with during this contract. I have no problem with being open and honest to another person whom I might have a relationship. I was more concerned with the possible consequences that Sir may encounter if I were to tell someone about my power dynamic ( Read more... )