oh good times, you know it can really just be ok sometimes even though that may be hard to believe even though its hard to do what is best anyways steph this is for you!!

get a load of me get a load of you
walking down the street and i hardly know you
it's just like we were meant to be
holding hands with you when we're out at night
got a girlfriend ( Read more... )

I don't really know what happened but all of the sudden I am here without a clue how to get back. I really don't want to get back, its like everything keeps moving and thats ok. Its really weird. I kinda just don't know what I am doing. Its like I think everything is so under control but its so not. Anyways I guess I am making no sense.

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I am so happy right now because I finally got my writing back I was able to put my writing in stanza form! Yay so I will share it again is about a reaccuring aspect in my life ( Read more... )

OK so Anthony has to stay longer and I'm feeling really sad I don't know I guess I just miss him! Anyways Lets see what has happened, well I drove to Anthony  last weekend wow it was so nice to see him and even though I felt bad because we were doing it, it felt so familiar to be doing the best friend thing with him you know like laughing and ( Read more... )

So in about 45 minutes I will be on my way to see Anthony. Wow I miss my cakes!!! Anyways like today and yesterday I came up with like this apifany that I am in the same situation as my sister only she got what she wanted and I took the high road and a clean conscious, I could have fucked him that night but I didn't I respected his girlfriend! Fuck ( Read more... )

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So I went to the NA campout this weekend at Manteca waterslides, I hadn't been in a really long time! Its the last one they are having there but yea it was great I got to just like collect myself and relax. I also got some closure true and honest closure. It feels fantastic I must say. Ok so I'm gonna call Daniel before his birthday but not before ( Read more... )

Ok so I went to "spear" today that was lame! Though I must say I love the treatment I get! I am really just goin through the motions everything feels so weird lately. Maybe its just something that happens every once and a while but I feel really "stay at homey"! I think I want to go to beauty school after high school just you know to get something ( Read more... )

How could I have done the one thing I dispise ( Read more... )

I am soo fucking done with him that shit pisses me the fuck off if you say your gonna be somewhere at a certain time fucking be there and wait your ass until I get there five fucking minutes late! Fuck that shit I don't think he knows what the fuck I am capable of he said pick me up at work and I was 5 minutes late I am tired of feeling like that ( Read more... )