each cut is a little bit deeper
a little bit longer...
each time i bleed a little bit less

struggling with letting go ( Read more... )

blind (july 14, 2003)

you don't even know what you are
blinded by your own lies
fooled by your own mask
can't see what lurks deep inside

i can see a cruel and bitter heart
cold, black and loveless
completely calloused in anger
thriving off of my misery.

snake (july 14, 2003)

slithering around
searching for someone new
preying on the defenseless
by earning their trust
sinking in your fangs
your bitter venom seeping into their hearts.
feeding off their misery...
you flourish in their despair.
slinking away
from the one who once loved you.

untitled (june 28, 2003)

filthy....
covered in lies.
drowning in anger.
and darkened by selfishness
so lost and hidden
tucked away from anything good
lies your heart.

can't ignore it (june 28, 2003)

"ignore her" he says.
its hard to ignore these feelings inside
what im feeling...
i really dont know.
this shit is all new to me.
never been hurt in this way before.
not once have i been this betrayed.
didn't know what it feels like to be used

cleansing (july 28, 2003)

feel so dirty inside
all this crap in my heart
all the shit running through my veins
i wanna let it all out...
just bleed it all away
make these feelings go away!
why do i even think like this?

where you aren't (july 28, 2003)

fell into your trap
got so caught up in your web
ignoring every warning
i let down my guard completely
trusted you-
cared for you with all my heart
now im here hurt and ashamed
feeling broken up and used
this gap in my heart so cold-
dark and barren.
the place where you once were.

when the curtain falls (july 28, 2003 ( Read more... )

love/hate (april 28, 2003)

Sometimes I really hate you
I think its because I love you so much
More than there are stars in the sky
And grains of salt in the ocean
But when you hurt me…
I want to hurt you more.
When I feel like I’m dying inside…
I want you to die too!