The essence of what I have experienced in the past couple of weeks has been beyond mind blowing. Beautifully baffling, this is a whole new set of flames I have yet to dabble in ( Read more... )

It does make me sad, though. How little effort and strength I put forth. Hell, I barley offer anything to the table!
Yet, I crave more. I seek the fullfilment of all that the unknown has for me.
But I'm so god-damned anxious, I can hardley breathe.

My coffee has gone stale and I shouldn't smoke another ciggarett.
                          to hell ( Read more... )

 Sarah just left after staying with me for the past few days and already, I miss her a thousand times more.

I'm not sure what else to say.
Should I tell you that?
Either way, this feeling that I have is quite odd-a bit uneasy.

Should be interesting to follow this little tangent.
Better yet, to watch.

We are all. Free. To do. Whatever we want. To do.

i'll give you $1,000,000  if you fly sarah poore from allentown to orlando. more specifically, allentown to my house.

thanks so much for your support and participation,
love always-
ally<3

 ever hear that death comes in three's?

meagan told me that, once.

rest in peace my man. 
i miss you already matt bailey<3

ocala aftermath- here i come.

wish me luck. or sanity. either one.
sarah, if you read this please call me.

i'm fighting for all i've lost.
everyday, is a day closer to seeing you.
where do i go from here?

no use in picking up the pieces, they're no use now.

let's see how ramdon i can make this WHILE still being somewhat imformative.

Tomorrow at 12 I start my new job at Korshak & Assiciates. Monday-Friday 12-5 at a law office. fuck yeah!
School sucks, and i'm still as lazy and unmotivated as ever.
Everything keeps changing when nothing has really been happening.
Same ole, ole - and it just gets worse.
And I ( Read more... )

 f-u-c-k-i-n-g broken.
fucking broken.

with the air so thick, a tousand time squares would be put horribly to shame.
the pollution has long since settled in my lungs.
i can't breathe.

i don't want to do this without you.
i can't be without you.
i can't do this.

how can someone so full of life, suddently, be stripped from any signs of it?
every inch, every cell, every organ - gone.

fuck this.
i'll be my own god now. i'm not the most reliable person, but i sure as hell wouldn't  have him die on my watch.

this will never come out the way i want. why bother.
why why why why?
this is all bullshit.