Well you were very much a part of that time.. and what I was going through. And yeah my concept of you is probably nudged somewhere in one of those lobes. It will always be there.
To me, the eyes of an MRI are the most disturbing. I really admire your drawing upon your life for your art, Cecilia. It takes a certain strength to craft permanent reminders of things as dark and real as the disease.
Even if I try not to.. my art (usually paintings) tend to be more personal and revealing than I ever intend them to be. It's usually people that point it out to me later ... and then I pick up on it. It's really hard for me to make anything that is not personal... intentional or not.
I know what you mean. Songwise, I tend to get personal. Then, later, I get depressed at the reflections and think I'm dwelling on things I shouldn't. Fun. ;)
(Oh, hey, by the way--I used to be kronosoam. This is my new LJ account.)
yeah i reacognized you from your pitcher.. heh. aren't i Smarrt. Well you know... at least you can understand me... going through it yourself, being young, and trying to lead the life you want. I don't think I've had any choice BUT my work to be deeply personal ... it's where I draw most of my "sources" even if I don't even realize it until the piece is finished. Then I look back .. or someone will point something out to me.. and all of a sudden it's like they open up and i feel like I had unconsciously revealed myself. But I have come to terms with that.. and don't let my disease become any more negative aspect of my life than it needs to me.. so if it's going to lie beneath the surface of my paintings.. so be it.
ehh, that's not the optic nerve. The white thing under the eye socket is a polyp in your maxillary sinus, and that's your right eye actually (left and right are reversed). You actually can't see any of the optic nerve in that top picture since the slice is too far foward from where the optic nerves go into the eye.
I was actually summing up a lot of what happened to me. I was diagnosed with Optic Neuritis... and i have MANY brain scans that show an VERY inflamed optic nerve and the neurologists even pointed it out to me on the scans. I couldn't move my eye and I lost sight.. which is more the point than actually the details of "what is what." but thank you very much for pointing out what you know about MRI's .. And it is my left eye. I said "left" because it is actually the left eye in the picture (for visual reference) and its also my left eye that was inflamed.. note: these images were shot on a light table and made into negatives that i printed as photographs and such.. so it's probably a lot different than something you are used to looking at.
also i said "it is part of my inflamed optic nerve" which meant reallly that it was just part of the inflammation in that eye. Sorry I could not be more specific for you. :) It wasn't that relevant .. it wasn't a medical lecture. heh
very powerful...wang1961November 10 2005, 17:36:56 UTC
Very powerful images, Cecelia. I have had an ambivalent relationship with these kinds of images since my son was diagnosed with epilepsy. But he's better, so I guess I can look at them again without freaking out.
On a related note... I need HELP doing fundraising for my 2006 MS150 attempt. Yes, after helping on the ride as a volunteer for several years, I am finally going to ride it next April.
Would it be possible for you to forward a note to your nearest and dearest, and ask them all to contribute to my effort?
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And yeah my concept of you is probably nudged somewhere in one of those lobes. It will always be there.
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Somewhere between love and devotion.
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It's really hard for me to make anything that is not personal... intentional or not.
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(Oh, hey, by the way--I used to be kronosoam. This is my new LJ account.)
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aren't i Smarrt.
Well you know... at least you can understand me... going through it yourself, being young, and trying to lead the life you want.
I don't think I've had any choice BUT my work to be deeply personal ... it's where I draw most of my "sources" even if I don't even realize it until the piece is finished.
Then I look back .. or someone will point something out to me.. and all of a sudden it's like they open up and i feel like I had unconsciously revealed myself.
But I have come to terms with that.. and don't let my disease become any more negative aspect of my life than it needs to me.. so if it's going to lie beneath the surface of my paintings.. so be it.
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But you have a very pretty hippocampus.
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but thank you very much for pointing out what you know about MRI's .. And it is my left eye.
I said "left" because it is actually the left eye in the picture (for visual reference) and its also my left eye that was inflamed.. note: these images were shot on a light table and made into negatives that i printed as photographs and such.. so it's probably a lot different than something you are used to looking at.
and thanks :) i work out. heh.
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It wasn't that relevant .. it wasn't a medical lecture. heh
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On a related note... I need HELP doing fundraising for my 2006 MS150 attempt. Yes, after helping on the ride as a volunteer for several years, I am finally going to ride it next April.
Would it be possible for you to forward a note to your nearest and dearest, and ask them all to contribute to my effort?
Peter
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