Days like these are strange, when I see the world in a sharp light, erosive and unclean. I can see how we each bitterly strangle our own shortcomings with rope made out of a past of agonised blame. I have done it, you have, we all have; even those that claim to be enlightened, awoken, those that I and others look up to. We all fail to take ( Read more... )

dark angel come blessed
kiss me with poisoned lips
fuck me with a heart black with life
--mymymywhatprettyeyesyouwouldhave

come to me being of destruction
the dark sweet violence of body against body
I miss that disgusting trembling of ego clashing
ego breaking strangled slouching
mymy where did you go?

just bring me there for one s e c o n d ( Read more... )

You should be smiling, Mr. Mirror Man. You felt power this week, face to face with an old nemesis. You let go of all those dastardly worries, the women with their ankles shackled. You freed yourself. You let go, you took a breath and it felt beautifully fresh.

"Sleep tight, grim rite, we have two hundred couches where you can
Sleep tonight,"

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I was beat, sworn to senslesness by a bottle of SoCo. The sweetest taste was still on my lips. Burning in my chest, ignoring the chill of the unclasped cold. The night had been fairly uneventful, especially after the last few weeks of awkwardness and stupidity. Black was the sky. Emptying was my home.

There were still troubles tormenting me, still ( Read more... )

oh.

you are pretty funny.

and predictable.

I say to myself.

"she feels that my sentimental side should be held with kid gloves
but she doesn't know that I left my urge in the icebox"

these lyrics ring true. all too soon.

I haven't actually enjoyed drinking in a long time. Not until tonight. There were points were the memories slew through me, when I heard Thom Yorke and PJ Harvey in unison, reminding of worse/better days when I was infatuated with a certain David Lynch fan friend of mine, and when I was getting over another heart break from the same girl.

I ( Read more... )

This is all so silly. The stupid little boy doesn't know the damage he's done. The stupid fuck doesn't know the damage he will do.

And all he wants is that warm and tender touch.

Damn the weak yelp.

Come out and take your medicine Danny!

A mallet to the face never hurt anyone . . .

There was a certain chill, unexpected, if only deserved, as I stood with a mild fever and choking tonsil. There was a certain air, a madness you could say, that bore down through my mind as I watched the light flicker, twitch, there above the Music and Movies notice. "Consume" the world said, but all I could focus on was the awkward twitch, the ( Read more... )

sigh

"I'll bring you when my lifeboat sails through the night
That is supposing you don't sleep tonight"

there is so much pain around me. I once again got what I wanted. now I just need to get them all to relinquish their troubles onto me. so that they can smile again. and I can feel better with the weight bearing down on me. what a delicious fucking weight. the weight crushing all that is me.

maybe Jesus simply had a mental malfunction. it feels so ( Read more... )