I let down the one person in the world who has always been there for me. Always i can count on her for support or words of wisdom. This has been on my mind constantly for 2 days now, which is why i'm still up right now writing this. Words cannot describe how much she means to me. And if I wouldve known how upset she was, there's no doubt i ( Read more... )

The man on the porch ( Read more... )

I've been 20 for a few days now, nothing big. I feel like I could walk through walls, invisible. Must be the holidays.

Well looks like it's time for my yearly update.. Not many read this, but I have time to spare. Things have been pretty good. I started working again, it's still hard to get up early for it.. but I'll get used to it again. I GOT A RAISE!! Oh yea ;) I'm out of the minimum hole and up by fity cents. Things are still going smoothly between the ( Read more... )

I can relate how I feel to this song ( Read more... )

Well I haven't posted since the break, so here we go. I think the break really helped me sort things out within myself. I don't feel mad anymore, well I haven't felt mad... there's still time. But that's a good sign I guess. We talk everyday, friends... What I wouldn't give to have her again. Anything, just take it... anything. But I guess if ( Read more... )

Well it's been a while since I've posted ("It's Been Awhile" Since I could hold my head up high, oh wait that's Staind). Well I haven't posted because nothing has really changed. I'm still trying so hard to get over her. But everytime I think I'm over her she does something to get back into my head. She called me on thurs (April fools day) She ( Read more... )

Why do I feel like I'm the only one trying. Why must I go through this? Was it something I did? Something I said? I keep trying to ignore the pain, but it wont go away. Why must I put myself through this? I keep trying to convince myself that it isn't worth it. If she doesn't care then why should I? But to me it is worth it. I can absorb ( Read more... )

Well today Started out ok, i guess. It was raining and my car was wet. Don't get me wrong I love the rain, but today was just one of those days. I felt like I was being ignored by all, and I guess I was. I also found out that my chances with her are pretty much non existent. I know she knows how I feel but I still have to tell her. As for prom I ( Read more... )

Ok so I'm still trying to find the right time to tell her how I feel about her. This has not been easy, I'm not that good in sharing my feelings with others, also I have the doubt in the back of my mind that she doesn't feel the same way about me. I just feel that every time I try to get closer to her she pushes me away. I know that she has lots ( Read more... )