well....i did my job. my job was to not do anything. not letting myself get worked up. not giving myself enough time to feel. not thinking. just moving on. and dam, was that ever hard. i dont really know how i did it....because i did nothing. heh almost sounds like some bruce lee philosophy. its like, if you try to do nothing, you're still trying ( Read more... )

trying SO desperately not to fall back into that hole

stayed up pretty late last night finishing my paper. it was all good tho. just talking to a friend ( Read more... )

Count0urNumbers: being pissed implies u might do something about it. self pity coincides with giving up
Count0urNumbers: u choose

had a really good talk with my dad today. i guess i sort of understand things better now. i dont have answers, but thats ok. just the realization that i will get through this, and that everything ive ever been through in life....everything i thought would never end.....has ended. and that gives me some peace of mind. nonetheless, i still feel the ( Read more... )

meh. last night was intense. i feel particularly drained right now, which might mean i can work ( Read more... )

wow

i finally got it all out to someone

so ( Read more... )

hmm nate just updated. maybe hes homesick?

dam i miss that guy

well, im not at the library today, cuz i need to use internet like whoa for my paper. so ya......im here, just fucking around.

more work today :( i guess its time to switch to invasive species for awhile. fffffffuck ( Read more... )