Where is the sense of satisfaction? I have worked so very, very hard to get where I am. I have endured much and suffered losses I both chose to experience and  others that just come as an expense of my career or other none determined variables.  I believe I have done much, but in reality I'm still the same power addicted, paranoid, judgmental, ( Read more... )

Do I try to reclaim the past with all it freshly covered wounds & all the tulmuts it will create?

or

Do I claim the future offered despite the unknown path & uncertainty of emotions?

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To See Beyond the Cage
Dreamscape prison
Illusory realm of truth
I desire no exit

By: Nathan Todd
Sunday August 3rd, 2008.
7:08 AM (PST)

Precipice of Oblivion
I could kill you now
And in that murder end all
All that I could be

By: Nathan Todd
Tuesday August 5th, 2008.
10:55 AM (PST)

The Old Owl
I’m invisible
A hunter of the shadows
Death from the night sky

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 The Six Elements of My Sovereign Magics

I shift as the mountain
Untimely and chaotic
I am pulled by gravity
How many times I have died

I fly as the eagle
Both majestic and aloof
Held aloft by the winds
The Heavens where I glide

I roar in the morning
Burning as the sun
I am warmth and power
Darkness I won’t abide

I swim as the dolphin
Joyous and carefree
Cradled ( Read more... )

  A Dialog of Reflections

What do you know, I asked myself?
I answered myself as best I could
“You are aging and you will die”

What is Yesterday, I asked?
“Yesterday is past. It is completed. It is now a combination of experience, nostalgia and recollection.”

Then what is Today, I asked?
First I answered,
“Today is the present, the gift of each moment. The ( Read more... )

Summer once offered me a kiss
She was golden and radiant as the sun
Her light filled me, it was in me, consumed me
I was in the light

Summer took my hand in hers and offered me a dream
Bluest skies, warm winds swept and a glow to be my own
A halo, an aura, a veil of whitest white
I was in the light

Summer took my heart in hers and I was shown her fire
The ( Read more... )

Winter is coming. Thank God.

My dreams, may that be as sweet and gratifying as they were at the beginning of this year.
I want freedom from all this light and shadow. It confuses me.
Grant me darkness and winter's cold kisses on my lips and cheeks. 
Grant me snow to play in... to lay in .... to dream in.
May I be caressed as I was in the time of the two ( Read more... )

I Am A: Chaotic Good Human Fighter

Alignment:
Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.

Race:
Humans are the 'average' race. They have the shortest life spans, and ( Read more... )

On December 19th I leave for family visits in Niagara Falls and Hamilton Ontario. I don't know how to feel about that ( Read more... )