im not gonna lie.
it was pretty tough to be fake at first.
but i got used to it.
now, it scares me.
sometimes i catch myself in the act.
i need to tell myself,
THE TRUTH.
what really went down.
how i need to be cautious around you.
how i cant feel safe and secure around you.
how my life turned upside down because of you.
how i cant tell anyone ( Read more... )

damn LG.
i find myself constantly checking in.
yet, nothing.
no words?
have nothing to say in your defense?
because you finally see the shit you do?
why can't you just come on out and admit?
i know we all have our shit.
but cant you see that you've taken this too far?
can't you just learn to control yourself?
at least have the decency to apologize ( Read more... )

i forgave you. i gave you a second chance. and this is how you choose to change your ways? yeah, way to go. i really thought there could've been some good in you. i guess not. i guess i can't take your word for anything anymore. you're one lucky kid. if it wasn't for my stupid concern about your future, you'd be out of here. you're fucking lucky i ( Read more... )

new vocabulary word ;]

gayyy. school and volleyball. keeping me from my love. livejournal, i've missed you. nothing much to update. life is pretty much the same except for now there's school and volleyball. no time for ANYTHING.  this is one of the days i get to kick back and relax. maybe sleep early. need those hours. im starting to fall asleep in ( Read more... )

i dont know. well i do. i believe its because i was left out. not on purpose..it wasnt their fault. but because of it..im hating myself even more and more. i dont really want to talk to anyone about it because i know its annoying. im always complaining about my life being imperfect. when i know that there are thousands of people having it BAD. ( Read more... )

ehh. already august? summer went by pretty fast. hmm. so i went to Discovery Kingdom, Jonas Brothers Concert, LA, and Las Vegas. didn't spend enough time with people. i just don't feel as if i did that much over the summer. probably because i stayed at home taking care of Jessica for most of the time. now school is around the corner. GAYYY. not ( Read more... )

all the way to LA for that long beach. didn't even get to see the beach. that was pretty darn tiring. waking up at 7 in the morning. sleeping at 11:30 at night. 12 hours of conditioning for volleyball. i hope it was worth it. we'll see once school starts.

freaking tripped over a pole going through security in sacramento. sat by two loud indian ( Read more... )

so basically. i should be packing as of right now. however, i choose not to for many reasons.
a) it's 9:08..not a good time to pack.
b) i'm kind of hungry. you can't pack on an empty stomach.
c) i don't know what to pack.
i think those are wonderfully thought out reasons.

on another note..i feel bad for not being able to go to giselles birthday ( Read more... )

there was this little birdie that woke me up at 9 and kept bugging me about livejournal. telling me to post an entry. so, yeah..i don't really know why i haven't been on. you'd think nothing happened. and yeah..nothing happened. summer is almost to an end. and im not ready for it yet. but basically. you. and masiaaa. awww. cutiesss. i want to go ( Read more... )

She sits in the shower as the burning droplets of water hit her smooth caramel skin. However, Ophelia sees her skin covered in bruises with the memories that would linger in her mind forever. She thinks about all the good times she shared with him, not realizing a smile spread across her flawless face. Suddenly, a bang on the door. "Ophelia! What ( Read more... )