It's amazing how many little things can go wrong just to piss you off.

Seriously.
I've been so close to crying, or I've actually been crying, for a few days now.

I did not want to come home... wait, I don't actually have a home ( Read more... )

Jenn wrote this about me a few months ago. I can't even capture myself this way.

The Chaos That Consumes Me

She makes me laugh but then she weeps,
Over the secrets that she'll always keep.
The poison air she breathes is choking me,
But I can't move and I can't leave.
The tears come now but they don't sting,
Her eyes are closed but she hears me.

She' ( Read more... )

So this is the new year, and I do feel different.
I know there's going to be a lot of shitty things to deal with in 2006.
But I've already had more good this year than I have any other year.

living here isn't too bad ( Read more... )

My New Year's Eve was not that special ( Read more... )

Happy 2006!

Finally, 2005 is over.
But do you think 2006 will be any better?

so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress ( Read more... )

I like being depressed.
My creativity is at an amazing level.

But now I'm happy again.
Damnit.
And I didn't get anything done.

I started reading through my live journal today.

This year has sucked.
Especially everything after July.
And this November was worse than anything else I've ever seen.

But it was good too.

Eveyone says it's been the best and worst year they've ever had.

I just want it to be over.

This is avian melancholy.