I know it’s been a while, but I figured I’d better post something here just to let you all know I’m alive. I’m in a really tough space right now, so feel absolutely unenspired to write. I am not at peace right now, and I’m on a quest to try and figure out why. Something’s going on inside me that I don’t know what it is, and I’m having a hard time ( Read more... )

This has been a very good week, and I’d like to say I feel much better now than I did when I got here. Getting here turned out to be interesting, and again, I got here later than I’d planned, but I did make it and I still had a good time.
Thursday was busy, as I spent most of the evening getting things done before I left late that night. I had to ( Read more... )

I had a most disturbing dream a couple weeks ago. I dreamed that I had some kind of problem with my lungs. I’m not sure what it was, but it was so life threatening that either I had to have the surgery, and possibly not make it out alive, or not have the surgery and die. I remember assessing the risks, and decided that I’d rather take my chances in ( Read more... )

I’m feeling a bit better physically. I’m not sure if it’s the new machine, or if I slept in yesterday and the day before. Julie says it’ll take some time to really notice a difference, so I’m not sure. Emotionally, I’m not feeling so good. I’m scared, worried, and depressed about a lit of things. I just feel so unsettled and uncertain about my ( Read more... )

I’m going to do something that doesn’t make any sense here for a change. I’m going to write a blog entry with bunches of words to describe how I feel about one little word. This word has been used a lot in my life to describe some very important relationships. This word has bothered me for a long time, because of this fact. That little word is “ ( Read more... )

Well, a lot has happened this week, so I’ll try to remember everything as much as I can.
Sunday was the trip to the distillery for dinner with the crew; Tasha, Bonnie, Julie, Kim, Catherine, and Kelleigh and the boys. We all pigged out as usual, and talked about different things. I was finally able to open up to Tasha about some things, and we ( Read more... )

So I found another one of these thingies floating around, so I decided to fill it out, because I could. It’s another one of those random Q&A thingies.

1. What curse word do you use the most?
Shit
2. Do you own an iPod?
No, although I’ve thought about it. My only beef with it is I can’t play regular MP3s.
3. What person on your flist do you talk to ( Read more... )

So I never did get to do that full moon solitary ritual. I decided I needed to think about exactly what I was doing the ritual for, plus, I wanted to think about what I was offering to what deities. There are so many gods and goddesses for so many different things that I didn’t want to piss any of them off, or royally screw something up by doing ( Read more... )

And thus another weekly update begins. It’s been quite the eventful week this time around, so this may be long. Nothing bad happened; I was just very busy with things.
Sunday night when I got home, Heather and Michael were outside preparing for some yard and outdoor altar work they wanted to do. Heather found two bags of sea shells on clearance ( Read more... )

I should not have taken two weeks off from blogging. So much has happened, I’m afraid I might forget it all now. Ugh! I’m going to put in here what I can remember, and try and do justice to it all.
Easter was spent at the home front. First, we went out for sushi; something I haven’t been able to do in a long time. I sure miss being able to do our ( Read more... )