i am lost. on so many different levels. i hate it.

i have no confidence in myself as a person.

i came home from washington the other day. i don't think i have ever been so thankful to be home. not that washington was bad, because it wasn't. but i certainly missed everyone here. when i was gone, i realized how many friends i have. nikki and the eagans threw me a party on thursday night and it was awesome to see my friends there. and the next ( Read more... )

i may be coming home within this next week. i was going to wait awhile longer, but an opportunity presented itself to me, and would require me coming home before next weekend. It was kind of an answer to my prayer. I've been thinking about going into carpentry for awhile now (i know, i'm fickle, and it's subject to change again), and i a have a ( Read more... )

Remember when i was going to join americorps ( Read more... )

this trip has been weird so far. as much as i've loved seeing some place new and seeing the beautiful scenery, i'm just so homesick. i went to this party the other where everyone was getting drunk and high.. and i was just sitting there thinking... this isn't where i belong. i think i was the only one there not drunk or high. parts of me want to ( Read more... )

well, i finally made it to beautiful bellingham, washington. i am stunned with how amazing this place is. my train ride was way better than i thought it would have been. i figured by hour six i'd want to hang myself, but was pleasantly surprised when i actually enjoyed the train ride. while on the train i saw deer, wild turkies, a pair of white- ( Read more... )

tonight was the last night i got to spend with my friends. i love my friends so much. it bums me out knowing that i won't get to see any of them until december. but i guess it's really not that long of a time. my trip will be over before i know it, and i'm sure i wont' be ready to come home ( Read more... )

dan cox and i are having going away parties on saturday evening. they are both seperate parties, but you all should definetely go to both. go see dan off as he is about to go on this sweet a trip. then come see me as i'm going on a trip as well. we both like people, so we would like to see all you guys.

so, i have one week until i leave for washington. i can't believe it came so fast. it seems like just last week when i first had the idea to travel to washington, and now it's the first week of september already. i'm ready to go though... i'm not packed or anything, i just mean , mentally, i am ready to leave. i am ready for a change. i am ready to ( Read more... )