This has got to have been one of the worst days i've had in a long while.

Had a conversation with my boss yesterday to understand how task were assigned since, there were weeks when the load wasn't balanced, and my co-worker usually got more.

Today said co-worker comes at me saying he doesn't know how things aren't balanced. Then manager claims he ( Read more... )

today, yet another sign of truths long known
it was as though i peered into another reality
though brief, i was 'awake' in the dream
3d; real; feelings

a truth laid bare

I know I am on the right path...
as I am starting to `live` it...

The winds of change are upon me
You are on the open sea of yourself
Make ready; hoist the sails
Find your heart, and take aim
where this leads; are you ready?
Create your path
Weather your storms
Find the blue skys

You're here; you've always been
your eyes are adjusting
you are ready
get up. take the oars of life
and do the work

now go

its amazing how lost one can be, living an everyday life.

There is no real good way to let off all this pain.
The only real way is not to generate it. If you do, you must bury it.
Then suffer.

I am alone.
For good reason.
No one else should have to see, or feel this.
I am doing others a service...
But keeping this away from them.

By day, distracted...
By night, swallowed-

a 3 day weekend. only to spend it time alone.
in pain

fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all
fuck humanity. fuck it all. fuck. you. all. im done.

The more I think about it. The more I realize, I have done little to nothing with my life. No real accomplishments at all. Nothing I can look back on and be proud of. Or looks back, and think to myself... I feel good about having done that in my life time...

This line of thought, is rather depressing.

What sucks the most is losing motivation to do anything. While also, wanting to vent to everyone in the world, knowing full well, no one gives a shit.
I just don't have the drive to do anything.