oh how i wish my random feelings of inferiority wouldn't creep up on me and make me regret being alive...
and how i wish i had someone to relate to. to say these things to, and be understood. and someone i could just lean my head against...

i don't expect this to happen any time soon.

i still haven't found a place where i can be me without holding anything back.
i don't fit in anywhere...

I somehow feel like I can't do anything IRL... Lovely.

Looking at women; be it on the internet or real-life, is quite the frustrating experience anymore. "look what you could have! but can't!" is how it feels...

fuck that shit. =\

Life, is a series of hills. Ups and downs. Most of the time, its a short 20ft incline. Followed by the grand canyon sizable drop.

I am still contenplating, just droping everything and going some where else. Fresh start. Complete, and total...
That is if I don't shoot myself first.
FML

i guess today is fml day.

I think the worst part, is that feeling of helplessness. Not knowing what to do to continue on. Yet I do anyways. Automatic. No spark ( Read more... )

I think its time i stop trying to do everything, and just do what I am able to do ( Read more... )

I think its probably better for me to stay alone.
I wouldn't want people to have to deal with my death aura of depression.
So I simply will keep to myself.

Perhaps I wasn't really meant for anything special after all, and the thought was dillusional.
I wanna cry.