hmm... snuggled up here all ready for bed.... in dans shirt that smells like him (wonderful... yes thats where your shirt went)... i feel safe in it... hes my boy... not my boyfriend tho. hes the thing that makes me most afraid of leaving for the navy...i dont want to leave him. not without being with him and having a gaurentee that we will be ( Read more... )

Ive noticed enough people read this but why oh why doesnt anyone respond??? i mean i cant surprise you cos you read this, but you dont comment so i know you know.... grr to you all... and kisses too btw

so i did it. i began all my enlistment paperwork for the navy. YAY!! i have my test on thursday at 7am in brooklyn (i got a 95% on the practice test) which means wake up at 3:30 to be picked up at 4:30 and i have my physical on friday at 6am in brooklyn which is wake up at 3:00 and pick up at 4:00.... but i have no problem with that. i do have a ( Read more... )

So this is my decision im going into the navy. im really doing it. dan said he will go in too. hes going in to the SEALS tho. i love that man and everything hes done for me. i really do. i dont know what else to say about him. hes been my world. i owe him my life and then some ( Read more... )

I hurt him. I never meant to. I love him more than this life itself. He is my everything. My parents get pissed at me for even talking to him and i get this whole big lecture. If only i could tell my mom that i love him as deeply as she loves my dad. I'd do anything for him.... I'd die for him, i'd gladly walk in front of a bullet for him if it ( Read more... )

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so last night i went to the movies with dan. (yes you were right im predictable, you know me too well daniel) it got me thinking about how we even came to date in the first place... i remember it well. precalc, our fights that led to me getting his number so i could "harass" him one night while i was babysitting. we talked and talked and talked on ( Read more... )

so i saw that movie today and it got me thinking about fate and how it works... and i mean i think things that are supposed to happen do happen... im meeting all these boys now and dan calls and wants to talk and i dunno. i dunno what i feel... im a mess... i've started writing poetry again tho thankfully... ive got my release back. i do miss dan ( Read more... )

so i moved in to an apt in High Bridge... fun fun fun... dan called me last night. i think he thinks that i'm fine... when really its all a damn good act. i miss him... a lot.... despite my better judgement. you cant help who you love. ::sigh:: im just so confused right now. i wish he would and could talk to me and not be self consious that he ( Read more... )

ok so i dont have one. but pretending is fun right? all i want is to be cared for the way i used to. the depression has been worse lately. my one bright spot is KCH. he knows how to make me smile and he goes out of his way to make sure i am not unhappy.... hes sweet. he really is. i still have no apt ant he was comforting me last night. holding me ( Read more... )