I am in a downwards spiral and I cannot for the life of me figure out how to escape it ( Read more... )

I want control over my life and my feelings so bad. I feel so sad and alone sometimes, and I am not sure how to make these feelings go away ( Read more... )

Sammi

OM NOM NOM
02:16Ashley

youre my faaaave
02:16Sammi

ROFL

ROFLF

FOLD SAGGY MAN DICK

..

rofl

so funny
02:16Ashley

LMFOA WAT?
02:17Sammi

my notes

the last ms paint

was old saggy man dick
02:17Ashley

LOL

WITH THE GUN

LOL

A DICK WITH TEETh
02:17Sammi

I said.

"ITS UNCUT AND LOOKING FOR ACTION"

ROFLFLRORLFL
02:17Ashley

omfg

<333 ( Read more... )

I just want to go somewhere that I feel happy. Without friends who are constantly doing things behind your back.. hanging out with you ex boyfiend, lying, stealing, cheating.. whatever. Without a boyfriend who is so far away that it really wouldn't matter if he was gone in the first place. Without a mom that was constantly screaming at you about ( Read more... )

If I had to name the one thing I hate about Arjen the most it would be the fact that I can't ever be angry with him.. or even pretend that I'm angry with him. It's like Justin again. I have to pick my words carefully and tiptoe around to make sure I don't hurt his feelings and make him feel like crap.When I'm angry with him, he gets overly stressed ( Read more... )

So I was put on these pills for my heart rate.. they keep me up all night. My sleeping schedule is all fucked up. I feel better when I can actually function.. but still.. feel like crap when I can't function ( Read more... )

I keep thinking about how Arjen and mine's relationship is going to work if I don't go stay for the summer... and the only thing I can think is that it can't. I already am finding myself insecure and angry for all the time he spends away.. how am I going to feel in another month? I will stick by him for however long it takes, but I know as well as ( Read more... )

I'm so sick and tired of long distance relationships. I love Arjen immensely.. I don't know what I would do with out him and in all honesty, he makes me the happiest girl alive. But, I don't like the fact that the origins of our relationship are based on being apart for weeks and months at a time. Its not fair. I want him to be near so I can yell ( Read more... )

Traveling Europe was the best thing I have ever done in my entire life.It was everything I wanted it to be and more. Not only was I able to stay in a flat in Central London, and have the whole entire continent at my finger tips but I was able to be myself, even if it was at the expense of having any friends. Coming home however, was one of the ( Read more... )

The relationship that Ali and I have has really started to bother me lately.. as now I am in England. I never really figured that him and I would grow up and get married.. I mean that's a serious long shot.. but I always hoped that I would at least get a chance to be with him in some aspect.. But I guess I was asking too much ( Read more... )