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[sammyphoenix]

Well, today was nice. Mom and I went to see "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory". That means that I've seen it twice now, and I still want to see it again. . .Last night mark and I went goofy golfing. I wasn't feeling any better than before. He could sense it, I hate it when he senses that something is wrong. We went and got icecream from

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Willy WONKA, love...

[katstormeinc]

Willy WANKA is something totally different. But, in any case, I think that if the only emotion you feel towards him is anger (which I'm still not understanding why), then you should probably break up with him, because if you're just stringing him along, and that's just going to make everything worse.

Aside from that, you seem to have been having this sort of trouble for a long time, and I'm starting to worry about it. Have you considered possibly talking to any of us (rather than your livejournal, which doesn't properly respond back) or possibly a counselor? It might help you more than simply venting can.

Re: Willy WONKA, love...

[sammyphoenix]

Wonka. I know I didn't feel like checking my spelling. Mark makes me mad when he reacts with anger around me for stuff that isn't my fault. And I've tried breaking up with him, twice, but he always makes me feel guilty. At church sunday night we sat on different sides of the church, don't really know why, but I felt really happy . . . until I thought of him just sitting there the way he does when he's in a bad mood and then I felt bad for feeling happy. He throws himself a pity party and last time we got back together he told me he was about to ask another girl out that I knew just to make me jealous.

I have tried talking to people, but I soak up what everyone says and don't know what to do, was it my idea or someone elses influence. I've even talked to him about it. Maybe going off to different colleges will get it through his mind that we won't work out. I just have this feeling that we will find someone at college. I already feel us drifting apart.