Ok so here are the new thoughts for the moment... marrage - why? oh yeah thats an old thought just revisited. It's hard to be married to a child. But how many men are not children. I think I knew one or two. Even dated one. Hubby has started councling after 6 years of me begging him to go. After one visit this "DR" has declaired Hubby is suffering ( Read more... )

Things get stranger by the day! Too befuddled to put into words, maybe later.

So in an effort try be productive I spent part of the day installing music onto the computer. Such a little thing. But i had to do something. Can't do much one handed. Not that i am bemoaning my own supidity, but it does make things harder. I must say that listening to music while in this tiny room makes a huge difference. Think I'll go for a walk ( Read more... )

Spent the morning dancing my butt off! Not that there is any hope of my butt truely leaving!! he he I think it helped a bit. Time will be the true test!

Don't you just hate the winter blues? They seem to get worse each year. Combine them with the emotiomal rollar coaster of death and you have one very wrecked person. But we have had a string of nice warm sun filled days to help dispell the blahs. Not that things are all rosy again. Are they ever? But starting to feel a smidge better. One step ( Read more... )

so now we find ourselves at the end of a very long and lousy day. The anger is still there. But can it really be named anger? At moments...yes. Other times frustration, confusion, bone tired, relentless restlessness. Things done to ease this in times gone by... long nights dancing, drinking, getting into blow-out fights, driving to fast, smoking to ( Read more... )

So now that months have flown by we find ourselves here again. Life gets yucky when loved ones die. When it's a long dragged out death. I thought I was going through all the emotions as it was happening, but I was wrong. They hit you over and over again after the death. Starting to laugh again. Not just live as a empty shell. Anger is overwhelming ( Read more... )

The day is off to an early start, and already I feel like I am getting left behind. So much to do before leaving here on Thursday. Still trying to finish the kidlets room so we can all move out of the living-room and back where we belong. Must do laundry, but have to find it all first. Just one of those small house renovation issues. Then must pack ( Read more... )

Today... first day of this. Much to learn, much to do. Is there ever enough time or energy?