today was odd. but then, it was thursday. I never really know what to make of thursdays. I think I need to go out on a date with my girlfriend. if only. my parents can't know, so it would be really hard to pull off. plus, she's in the same place. sigh. I do love her, though. some people are saying it doesn't seem like I do, and that scares me. I ( Read more... )

I went to church for the first time in over a month. I am so glad I went. For a long time I've been feeling lonely, almost empty, and pretty worthless. Then I began dating a wonderful girl, and I was happy. But it almost felt a little like I wasn't really into it, and it scared me. I love this girl so much, but I didn't want to hurt her by seeming ( Read more... )

that was one of the longest naps ever. I really must have no life if that nap is bracketed by checking this thing. blarg. well, now I get to go to church. I like church. church, church, church. I haven't been to church in like, a month. oooooooooooh! there's wind and rain right now. big wind. big rain. :0 I am being drawn to the outside realm. I ( Read more... )

you've all heard of dead piro days, right? better known as DPD's. i'm sorry, but today is a DCD. I can't stay awake. I blame happiness. when you're out of practice, it takes a lot out of you. I'm sorry to anyone looking forward to reading this. especially you, my dark angel. it's all your fault........and i love you for it. I n33d s[33p. gr0ggj. ( Read more... )

here it is, six forty-five in the morning, it's dark, wet, and windy. but my heart is light and my eyes sparkle. I get to see my dark angel today. you know what I think. I think that this time of the year is the true season of love. it's cold, so you have to huddle close, there's christmas, thanksgiving, and new years. plus, the rain. it's all just ( Read more... )

every second that passes brings me closer to seeing her. this weekend has been one full of strange and wonderful things. I was up late on friday; thinking. I was up late last night; hoping. and now, I am sure to be up late tonight; anticipating. if I wrote down everything I felt about her, we would all be up very late. a week from now. all I can ( Read more... )

happy. happy can't even begin to describe how I feel right now. let me put it this way: I was at work and I couldn't stop singing. love songs. "so this is love", "come what may", "your song", so many. I played all the songs I could think of on the jukebox. all day long. and it's all because of the greatest girl I know. she said she loved me, and I ( Read more... )

so, i'm kinda upside down in the corner in my room because that's the only place I can get a connection today. why am I subjecting myself to this? because i'm frantically trying to check messages from one of my contacts here. you see, she's writing some very interesting things that are leading me to believe that I have an admirer. tell me, Dark ( Read more... )

its 7:30 on a saturday and I am awake. to watch cartoons? no. to do something fun or at least tolerable? NO. I |-|4\/3 70 60 6R0<3Rj 5|-|0PP1N6. this early. WHY??? I d=on't even know. my parents are weird like that. but I am forced to go. and I was supposed to go to bed early last night so I wouldn't wake up cranky. i'd be cranky anyway if I knew I ( Read more... )

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