why does everything seem so far away.

This life is sickening.

Giving up isn't enough, everything you do dies in vain, time never stands in your favor, love is always looking for something better, hope is an unfriendly pass time, happiness never feels like it used to, loneliness cant stand you and I'm just stuck on the outside looking in. I understand why people kill themselves. I wish ( Read more... )

I hope you find this, I hope you read this one day ( Read more... )

I'm completely warn out, but yet....so amused.

I'd love to hear you say you're proud of me.
I'd love to hear you say I'm doing a great job
I'd love to hear you say you've been thinking about me
I'd love to hear you say I'm sorry

I'd love to hear your voice.

Did you know; A woman you are engaged to, Biblically, is already considered to be your wife? Cool huh?

I learned a lot today. It's amazing how people change when they think they're being pushed into a corner. The absence of self-awareness can be disgusting.

Someone needs to hold you accountable.

Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on, ( Read more... )

It blows my mind how people take love for granted. The comfort, the passion, the excitement, the feeling that there is that one person who will always be there for you. I feel like my love hasn't ever been good enough, like I'm never good enough. I gave myself away completely and now I'm stuck feeling incomplete. The best feeling in the world is ( Read more... )

I drove up to Orlando this past weekend to see Kira and Melody, and to pick up some of my stuff.
I had no sleep, but it was well worth it.

I don't like being so far away from everything that makes me happy.


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I absolutely hate overdraft fees. Now imagine 7 of them all at once... Seriously, we're all just feeding the banks and that shit pisses me off. Some people out there are getting hella rich off of peoples mistakes and accidents. I wish I didn't have to bank at all ( Read more... )

So I've been down in Ft. Myers for about 2 weeks now. I really miss home, I miss my daughter, I miss my family, and I find myself really missing Melody. I'm tired of experiencing these coincidences that just bring me back. I know God has his plan, but sometimes I really wish I could see the end results. I guess that would be cheating, and would ( Read more... )