A bay window with blue lights on the walk home, a decorated tree set up inside.

Tief inmitten Winter 
biss der Wind ins Bein 
Erde stand wie Eisen 
Wasser wie Gestein.  
Schnee gefallen leise 
Schnee auf Schnee 
tief inmitten Winter 
so war's eh'.

...makes me sad.  Glad, to be sure, that I left the country and settled here.  But oh, how selfish and stupid so many of us are!

We have so much.  We should share.

Inside the shower stall this morning.  And blood between my fingers after I made a grab -- and uncurled my hand.

You sleep with the window open, you take the consequences.

Ausgang

Immer enger, leise, leise,
Ziehen sich die Lebenskreise,
Schwindet hin, was prahlt und prunkt,
Schwindet Hoffen, Hassen, Lieben,
Und ist nichts in Sicht geblieben
Als der letzte dunkle Punkt.

Hallelujah.  This codeine fog can't be good for diagnostic acumen.

-- in which I am overcome with sorrow, with delight and then with sorrow, because first Steve is alive, he is there, I can be with him -- and then of course I realise that he is, no, gone.  I awaken almost in tears ( Read more... )

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I'll go to work, I'll deal with the needful.  The emergent.  The it-can-wait...  can wait.  Laziness as solidarity ( Read more... )

-- brushing Sonny The Cat, watching his eyes follow the clumps of loose hair as they sail out above the garden, dispersing in the slight breeze, pale fawn against the blue and the green.