I don't think I'm in love anymore...it's so weird how drasticly things can change from one day to another. I know at some point I loved him, but now I look back and see an infatuation:\ The relationship was nothing more than a fantastic dream...a fantasy of a girl that wanted a relationship so badly she went against all her better judgements. He's ( Read more... )

I love you. I lied about forgetting you...I lied about not wanting to talk to you or see you. I miss your smile and your laugh, but most of all I miss being near you. Why do you just seemingly toss me aside? It seems that to you I meant nothing more than a friend to talk to. I'm not down playing a friendship merely stating that in reverse it takes ( Read more... )

I think a big change in my life is going to take place. I'm so afriad of not finding what I'm going to be looking for. I'm so excited for the possiblity of this change and I'm anxious to get started. *shrugs* I hope all goes well for me...I've had enough of the bullshit I've been getting latelty...

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Why is it that I become so much more attached? I put so much time and emotion into something, and for what? For my heart to get stompped on? I'm emotionally exhausted...I don't want that...my heart hurts and I want to cry. I don't want pity for it either I want time and space to cry to myself and write the kind of poetry I write best. I want to be ( Read more... )

ahhhhhhh. Why is it the second someone breaks with you they miss you and want you back?!? nooooooooooo! He calls me up like yesterday and starts saying how much he misses me and all this ish:\ *arg*

*sigh* We broke up just like that. A deja vu of my relationship with Adam...the reasoning exactly the damn same. He still cares about me but isn't in love with me anymore:\ how utterly annoying. I'm sick of hearing I'm the perfect girlfriend when all see is a pattern of good guys falling out of thier feelings for me. I don't want to be cliche but ( Read more... )

We came so close to ending it all but ended up crying instead. We talked all day about why we fight but couldn't quite comprehend why...we stated how hard we had been trying and concluded that we had tried it all. Finally we decided to give it another try and agreed to break it off if it was still working. I now completely understand how two people ( Read more... )

Finally I'm irritated to a point of no return. My feelings are hurt and my heart feels half broken. He critisizes everything I say and do. He says I'm inconsiderate and rude...then that he's an asshole all in one discussion. I don't know any more. I don't want to break up with him because I love him and he makes me smile inside and out BUT he also ( Read more... )