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sandykidd

I Went to Arizona, and All I Got Was This Lousy Peace…

Jul 20, 2010 21:34

Originally published at Kay Holt. You can comment here or there.

Hard to believe, but some distant corners of the internet still have not heard that my father died. On Tuesday July 6th 2010, he blew himself away after a three hour standoff with a SWAT team. Those of us dad left behind are grateful he didn’t take anyone with him. However, I may laugh ( Read more... )

health, family

Comments 25

haddayr July 20 2010, 22:06:52 UTC

Even so?

I am still sorry.

Sorry you had to deal with ALL of it.

fuck 'em.

sandykidd July 22 2010, 15:54:00 UTC

Everyone is doing a wonderful job of helping me roll the credits on the bad movie of my past. Thank you!

lotusice July 20 2010, 22:39:49 UTC

I'm struck in reading this how clear-headed, strong and lucid you sound in contrast to everyone and everything around you.

Including your father.

I guess sometimes the best thing we can say is that we didn't come through unaffected but we came through clean.

You did, you know? It's clear in reading this that you're as distant as the desert you describe here from all of it, and that's a good thing.

Loves.

sandykidd July 22 2010, 15:57:38 UTC

Yeah, I have my scars, but they're an honest history.

Thank you for giving me so much credit. :)

jolantru July 20 2010, 23:07:26 UTC

*hugs*

sandykidd July 22 2010, 15:57:44 UTC

*hug*

dragonsally July 21 2010, 00:49:04 UTC

I'm glad you are home, and that the trip wasn't totally awful.
*hugs*

sandykidd July 22 2010, 15:57:56 UTC

Me too - thank you!

mickawber July 21 2010, 01:23:58 UTC

Wow. I'm sorry. Death is never a barrel of laughs, this certainly no more so than most. But I find myself wondering: that bad movie people keep joking about, is it a farce? A thriller?

My wife got to be the savior/truth teller/pariah in her family. It's a lousy job, but I'm told it makes packing up and moving cross-country a lot easier.

And... Does it HAVE to be the sparkly, Mormon vampires?

sandykidd July 22 2010, 16:12:29 UTC

It was a bad WESTERN, of course! Complete with shoot-outs, stand-offs, and colorful language delivered in exaggerated drawls.

But yeah, exile for leaving home makes for a sweeter 'ever after'.

mickawber July 22 2010, 22:08:44 UTC

Ah. Of course. And a bad western can, I guess, be kind of fun-unless you're living it. Then it becomes Sam Sheppard and not so fun at all, I'd imagine.

My wife rarely regrets moving out here-and then only because it's a foggy summer (like this one) or a warm winter.