what did i do yesterday
missed 3 calls from jordan
3 calls
the last one he told me that i was a ungreatful dirty whore and that he loves me
wish i aswered that phone call

so we leave in less then 24 hours for puerto rico and then fly to st thomas where we will then take a ferry to st john and then a bus to the research station. It is all very exciting and doesn't seem real. like this isn't me this isn't my life. but we packed and which made it feel more real. So it is two weeks and working and playing and loving ( Read more... )

I Had two messeges yesterday from josh and laura, laura's was short and sweet it said i miss your face, and that she would love for a hundred years even a millon, and then joshes was long and rambling as he does about how much he misses me and wants me to go back to wisconsin and work with him. in conclusion i feel very very loved and missed, i am ( Read more... )

I feel full, i think that is the only way to describe it. I feel like he just fills this place in my chest, and sometimes it gets so that I am so happy i can't breath. am I supposed to feel such intense feelings for some one is just 4 weeks. I knows he feels it too, he asked me to stay in his life always and he said that i was perfect. I can't ( Read more... )

I like new friends don't get me wrong, but sometimes I just want my old friends, I just want someone who knows me. Someone i know who loves me and won't play that bullshit of I like you today, but tomarrow maybe now so much. You, see when I like you. I put everthing I got into you and it is dumb and stupid to love it one day and then be all distant ( Read more... )

some times I wish I wasn't as crazy as I am. It would make life easier.............

I went over to my teacher's house last night and I got high, I smoked up with my teacher....Yeah, It was a goal I had, and now it has been acheieved WOOT

It is almost mid night, and I am in the office of the lab building on the woods hole campus. We are trying to finish up our proposals for the next day. Andy and beth are here with me. It is very quiet in this building, and it smells funny. But so far things are going well. I get to work with dogfish which is very very exciting. WAIT in case you don ( Read more... )

We drank beer, we listened we danced. He leaned in to tell me something and his lip brushed my ear. He pointed out the nearly full moon. We ate tacos and laughed about nerdy things. Smoked a bowl on the walk back to the car. Got in the car and rolled down the windows, talked all the way back my feet out the window. Dizzy and drunk on him the music ( Read more... )

Huge Huge Monster Crush
I feel like I am 13
my boss's wife responded to my lack of boyfriend with " what about josh"
i nearly die.
if she only knew if she only knew
I want to progress. I am only runing out of time.

love jen

Oh going to go and see Buffalo tomarrow