I can't sleep, so I'm writing this pointless entry. Plus I'm busy procrastinating my science homework. Whatever.. coloring sheets on protein synthesis are lame. Almost as lame as Spinner, and he's the lamest. Which I'm going to get him to admit one day, promise ( Read more... )

So I'm bored. I didn't go to school this morning since I wasn't feeling so great when I got up and my mom let me go back to sleep. I guess she's all happy that I've stayed home so much the last week, besides the uh... sleeping over at Emma's. That's what I told her, anyway. I can tell she's lonely and I feel guilty cause... I'm not. Not anymore.But ( Read more... )

On Friday night Craig kept me up until some weird hour in the morning talking about nothing. It's okay though, since he's my future husband and father of our 4958568657676587 (hot) children. ..But after last night I think we uh, need to finish talking about some other things? And I feel guilty more than anything. Cause it doesn't get any more ( Read more... )

I went over to Spinner's house on Tuesday when I was tired and falling asleep everywhere. We watched a movie... and I fell off his couch when his dad walked in. Uhm, smooth? I fell asleep eventually... when I woke up I was in his room and he shared his bed with me. I wish he was with me every night. And every morning. And always. And he's so the ( Read more... )

So the last two days made up for the last week. And me being really, really stupid. Sunday morning I talked to Emma and she helped me figure things out instead of me moping and eating 453656 pounds of chocolate in my hotel room. Then I talked to Spinner, and I think things are better than they were before ..which is a lot. And I talked to Craig too ( Read more... )

I don't really feel like explaining everything that's happened on this trip so far because it's just.. it's lame. I keep thinking of all of the conversations I've had and they're just a big mess in my mind. All I can remember from them is feeling like I hate myself for always having to run away when staying gets too hard. What I'm really scared of ( Read more... )

I don't really know how to explain the last two days because they were just this big headachy jumble of good and bad. Wednesday night I went to the mall with Spinner just... because. And got a piggyback ride and ate cheese fries and stayed the night with him at my house ( Read more... )

I spent all this afternoon sleeping. And I'm still tired. Even though I did sleep well last night and everything.. cause yesterday was just a good day ( Read more... )

The only reason why I'm updating this is because I don't want Spinner to cry. And he's making me.

But my cheeks are still sore from smiling. And he made me feel unlonely... and safe. And happy.

And that's all for now.

Last night I went to the skating rink... I hadn't been there in a while. A long while, actually. Mostly I just skated around with Spinner and talked to him. And yeah, sucks to be him right now. But it's not like there's anything I can do about it, so I'm pretty much helpless over the whole situation ( Read more... )