I'm not sure how to write in this whole livejournal thing anymore. I want this to now just be a place where I can reflect on my day without trying to cover up anything and tell it how it is. Today...was a bitch. I wanted so bad for this place in Florida to work out for me but I just couldn't stand even driving in. I felt like everything about it ( Read more... )

Today has been one of the longest/shortest days of my life. I'm finally giving up, I can't handle everything anymore. I've dug myself into a hole deeper than I ever imagined. I tried to get the one person who truely loves me arrested. I'm done, finished, gone, disappearing for a little bit. When I return though, I will be better than ever. I will ( Read more... )

I have two more full days in Lakeland, yet I have a week's worth of stuff that I still have to get done in those two days ( Read more... )

It's the little things in life that make the biggest difference. Tonight, though a little thing, keeps me feeling connected and sane in this crazy world.

It's my senior graduation and I am here at home while everyone else is partying it up. I hate my life.

Last night was the first night in I can't even remember how long that I actually felt normal, happy, and glad TO BE ALIVE!

I'm really disappointed in allowing myself to have been used this entire year...now that school is over, I see who my true friends are, and who actually call me without needing a copy of homework or borrow a notebook ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like if I die, nobody will even notice.
Sometimes I feel like if I die, I'll make other lives easier.
Sometimes I feel like if I die, I'll make my own life easier.

ugh.

A day like today has made me realize that this is only getting harder and harder to cover up. I wish this would all go away. Four years has been long enough. Please leave me alone.