this semester/year of school has been one of those where i wish i could just get on a plane and fly away and never come back. i know it sounds like i'm complaining a lot, but that's just because, well...i am ( Read more... )

it's weird because i feel like i have turned into a bitter person. years ago i gave up gossiping for a while. not for lent or anything...just to stop it. i thought it was crazy and wanted to stop doing it. i think now about giving up gossip. i feel like 99% of my life is gossip, but most of it is actually about me ( Read more... )

Noah: You're bored! You're bored and you know it! You wouldn't be here if there weren't something missing ( Read more... )

i hate paperwork and funerals and missing my uncle.

i am thankful that he left us so much money, but i wish he was here instead.

i keep having dreams about spending time with him and they keep happening over and over.

i wake up crying.

i wish he was still here.

i miss: lazy days, kelly, my uncle, starbucks, my family, tara, wurstfest, peer mentor days during orientation, alabama

i can't wait until: spring break, rodeo, our pledges become actives, vagina monologues

i love: sleeping in, finishing papers, my sorority sisters, writing in advanced composition

apparently i only update when i am upset/sad....so i will update now ( Read more... )

i am so confused. my life doesn't make sense. i want to run away. i want to hide and cry and scream and stop all of this nonsense. i want to be free, but at the same time i know that i don't think that i can right now. maybe i wasn't cut out to be in charge of things. maybe i should have never taken on so much in life. i want to run away. far far

my uncle died. i watched him die this morning at 5:35. it was the saddest thing i've ever seen. i keep thinking he is going to wake up and be here tomorrow.

this week has been quite intense. i never really realized the reality of icu. you go in one hour, see the man next to you, see his family around him laughing and smiling, and you come in 2 hours later and he is no longer alive. it's intense ( Read more... )

you know...thinking back on this semester, i do believe that it has been the most difficult semester in my life. not with school, but with my understanding of things and people. people have definitely failed me in their friendship and people have back-stabbed me. people lie straight to me face and seem to be okay with it. i think about what defines ( Read more... )