It's My Party And I'll Cry If I Want To!
...I've been sitting here crying instead of going to my parents'. Then I happened on this rather nice post, and found myself reading people's LJ-turnoffs.
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: I'm not thrilled by endless memes, endless misery, or endless negativity."
Me: WAAH! I PRODUCE ENDLESS MISERY AND ENDLESS NEGATIVITY *sobs*
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: People who comment on a post full of happy squee with something like, "Ugh, but there was that one super offensive moment that ruined my enjoyment and I can't believe anyone could it enjoy it after that.")
Me: WAAH!!! I HAVE BEEN A SQUEE-POST WET-BLANKET!
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: Large amounts of internet drama."
Me: WAAH! I AM A NEVERENDING SOURCE OF DRAMA!
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: CONSTANT emo. I don't mean people who are genuinely facing serious challenges for a long period, but people who kind of define "first world problems" on a daily basis. I've unfriended someone who was in tears for a week because she couldn't get an ipad. (And she was in her 30s, not 15)
Me: WAAH!!! DESPITE LIVING IN A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY IN CHAOS, I STILL MANAGE TO DEFINE FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS ON A DAILY BASIS!!!
And then it DAWNED on me: Because, probably, of various things including a shortage of my depression meds, I am having what I used to call a Crying Orgy. In which I just curl up with whatever I can drag out of the fridge and sit there and BAWL.
And, since it's going to be my birthday in a few hours, I get a free pass on whatever I want to do, right?
So, I'm going to enjoy my crying orgy and not give a SHIT about anyone who's suffering and next to whom I am self-indulgent and st00pid. For the next 24 hours, I get a free pass. And that means IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!
...'course, that makes me feel less like crying. Go figure.
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: I'm not thrilled by endless memes, endless misery, or endless negativity."
Me: WAAH! I PRODUCE ENDLESS MISERY AND ENDLESS NEGATIVITY *sobs*
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: People who comment on a post full of happy squee with something like, "Ugh, but there was that one super offensive moment that ruined my enjoyment and I can't believe anyone could it enjoy it after that.")
Me: WAAH!!! I HAVE BEEN A SQUEE-POST WET-BLANKET!
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: Large amounts of internet drama."
Me: WAAH! I AM A NEVERENDING SOURCE OF DRAMA!
LJ'er: "Flist turnoff: CONSTANT emo. I don't mean people who are genuinely facing serious challenges for a long period, but people who kind of define "first world problems" on a daily basis. I've unfriended someone who was in tears for a week because she couldn't get an ipad. (And she was in her 30s, not 15)
Me: WAAH!!! DESPITE LIVING IN A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY IN CHAOS, I STILL MANAGE TO DEFINE FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS ON A DAILY BASIS!!!
And then it DAWNED on me: Because, probably, of various things including a shortage of my depression meds, I am having what I used to call a Crying Orgy. In which I just curl up with whatever I can drag out of the fridge and sit there and BAWL.
And, since it's going to be my birthday in a few hours, I get a free pass on whatever I want to do, right?
So, I'm going to enjoy my crying orgy and not give a SHIT about anyone who's suffering and next to whom I am self-indulgent and st00pid. For the next 24 hours, I get a free pass. And that means IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!
...'course, that makes me feel less like crying. Go figure.