so. i decided i didnt want my other journal.
i messed stuff up really bad.
But theres so much thats going on that i dont even want to think about.

So looking back on my old entries
Ive decided to make a new livejournal.
So add me there.

So lately
ive been spending my days listening to britney spears, a teens, outkast and any other random stuff
ive had a great week.
lots of fun
im about to leave though

MAGGIE I CANT EFFING WAIT TO SEE YOU ON THE 12TH

Oh im so over it!
me and josh are akward.
but whatever
me and christian well.
idk
But hes so cute!
and i like him tons.
and my mom and dad are really wanting me to date him.
so idk...!
i have to think
put my head on straight

ilu guys

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAHS MOM
AND TOMORROW MAGGIE

SO.
i met a really cute boy.
and i have a crush on him..alot
=)
Christiannnnnnnnnn.
yup

Its hard to say i miss you.
since youve been gone
i havent been the same
because ive been better.
im geting better
and im proud of it
i have ups
and downs
but im doing good right now.

SO!
im pretty positive lately.
i dont react as badly to things as i used to.
i pretty much stopped complaining completely...almost
im happier.
not happy all the way
im trying.
=)
lets hang out!

sometimes i wonder why people dont want to see me.
but then i figure it out.
im such an unhappy person
that nobody even wants to be around me anymore.
which makes me even more unhappy
so i sit around crying and eating food all day.
=(

Dear the people who are reading this.
nevermind, nobody does.

im a mess.

coldplay has kept me going.
i hope this clears up soon though.

jeez.
ilu

sometimes i feel like my lifes spiralling downward
i cant control anything.
all of this is my fault.
i fucked everything up.
id do anything to get that shit back.
anything.
i hate this.
i need you..dont you get that?