Last weekend, I asked Mary, "do you think I can use the "L" word yet?"

She told me, "Definitely wait for him to say it or at least until 4 months go by."

I asked Erin Tee, "can I do that?"

She told me to say what I feel.

Last night, at Nick's house, I told him I loved him. It was always the "I like you more" "But I like you most!" battle.
But I realized ( Read more... )

"You know it's never fifty-fifty in a [relationship]. It's always seventy-thirty, or sixty-forty. Someone falls in love first. Someone puts someone else up on a pedestal. Someone works very hard to keep things rolling smoothly; someone else sails along for the ride." - Jodi Piccoult (Mercy)

It used to say marriage.

But really, when you think about it ( Read more... )

It's been seven hours since I saw him.
And I miss him already.

HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?

How is it possible to like someone, anyone this much?

I don't understand it.
I don't understand myself.
I like him soo much.
Oh my god, Thanksgiving break is going to kill me.

And it was the one to work out.
It's official as of 4:30 this morning.

I am content. :)

What a lovely boy.
First relationship ever.
Happy!

I'm grinning like a retard at my computer screen.
So happy.
If any one ever works out, it's going to be this one.
And I will be happier than I've ever been
because I already am.

"Are you really going out to dinner with him?"

"No, that was just a joke."
>.<
Really, now?

Now I feel like they are just fucking with my emotions.
Gah.
Whatever. I'm going Halloween shopping with her and a couple of others in like an hour.
Can't wait!

"I like you, but I don't want a relationship."

Okay, I can deal with that. Fine. Understandable.
And the other night? She didn't stay over. He was on her computer talking to me under her name.

So nothing really happened, right?

Hopefully.
But now, "I'm hanging out with him."

"I'm taking her out to dinner tonight."

WAIT, WHAT!?

Didn't I hear you say "I don ( Read more... )

I know that if he likes her and he doesn't like me, it doesn't matter what I think ( Read more... )

I was in a fantastic mood all day.
Then the stupid bus didn't come to pick us up and we had to call for a ride.
Being stuck at wal-mart isn't all that fun.
And now what?
Could I have wasted my second, too?

Friday:

It was the night before the meet. I stayed up to do laundry and check up on the people coming in late from parties that weren't feeling too hot. I went to bed at 1:30 and was up for about a half hour at 3 when my roommate came in.

Saturday:

I woke up at 6:30. We had a meet that morning at Brockport. I caught the bus early, which is a nice ( Read more... )