Happy 18th Birthday to me!!

I like how my stomach is killing me
&& I can hardly walk
but I don't even care
cuz it's MY BIRTHDAY!
=]

I'm not turning pages in my life anymore
I'm starting a new book
I don't know if thats allowed technically
but I've always been kind of a rule breaker
so whats one more rule anyway?

I'm gonna push myself
&& I'm gonna sucessed with something in my life..
for probably the first time everrr.
I'm gonna be 18 in less the 24 hours =]
I think it's time to do ( Read more... )

Wow. Long time no update.
Things are definetly alot better then my last posts.
&& sometimes I might consider myself the luckiest girl alive.
I've got amazing friends
&& an amazing boyfriend


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Tonight I wanna cry and scream
&& let it all out
because I can't handle this anymore.
but I have to go to bed
because I have a 12-7 shift tomorrow at Henry Street which is going to kill me.
I'm used to 2 hour shifts.. at the slowest Subway on earth.
&& now I'm going to work a 7 hour shift, at one of the busiest Subways.
It's big for me.

not to mention ( Read more... )

Today's lesson.. Always expect the worst.
That way you're not setting yourself up for dissapointment all the time.
It took me wayyyyy too long to learn that.
&& now I'm stuck with nothing but dissapointmet & anger
because I don't know what the hell it is I'm doing wrong.

&&

on top of that I overhead someone talking about me in the hallway the other day ( Read more... )

There is snow.. in my backyard && it's sticking.
I think I might cry.
It's October && wayyy too soon for this.
Not to mention I'm supposed to be having my senior pictures done October 18th [[Wed.]]
&& there are definetly gonna be NO colorful leaves left :[

It's amazing how you can tell when you walk by some people that you were just being talked about.. It's definetly not a good feeling. It might even rank pretty high on the top 10 worst feelings in the world list ( Read more... )

I really don't like making these kinds of posts.. 
but I'm asking anyone who reads this to please please please say a prayer for my Aunt Julie & my Uncle Jim and they're too incredibly young && amazing kids, Lexi & Brendan.
My aunt's been diagnosed with Melanoma, the worst. 
They are the last family I can think of to deserve this, not that any family ( Read more... )

Aww. So life is pretty damn great right now.
I've got myself surrounded with some pretty great friends.
School is going pretty good, but then again it's only a week in :\
but I got my schedule all sorted out so it's not nearly as rough.
I dropped Anatomy.. that and AP Bio was just too much.
&& by doing that I got put in Culinary Arts.. not bad & ( Read more... )

My Senior year is going to be the hardest most challenging year of all.
I'm beginning to think taking a college level class was a biiigggg mistake.
&& I thought about dropping it but then I figured whats the use in that. You can't run away from it in college, might as well get used to it now.
but I'm 4 pages into the book and I already wanna cry.
I'm ( Read more... )