Skipped Shadow Accord and stayed home. Did nice boring things. Bought Erin a new dresser. Back to owning no tv, and on Friday i bought a washer and dryer from Lowes which was installed saturday so we did laundry all day.

On friday i felt pangs of missing mom pretty bad because i went with mom to buy the washer and dryer and the stove for their ( Read more... )

I look down at your wallet and see your id through the clear plastic cover. My first thought isn't to wonder how many days it has been since I saw your face, or how it felt when you kissed my cheek... it is; “Mom will be so pissed she left that ( Read more... )

I never knew grief could be so profound it would steal sleep from me. For the first time i slept with a stuffed animal and for the first time in a long time I slept in my mom's shirt. Not because of necessity but because it made me feel better. I could smell you on it, and while this horrible Stab of cold pain goes through me (this smell is ( Read more... )

So I survived the first day of McDonalds training. It was only four hours but there was a lot to learn. Hoping I manage to catch on. It's really fast paced and while its not complicated, its a lot to learn. The problem with having two jobs where you are on your feet is it is really hard on the ankles. Or at least mine. So far things aren't exactly ( Read more... )

So I kept seeing these odd posts on FB and the more I read them the more I was confused about what was bothering me. Until finally I was told by Andi that this was the month we found out about Clare ( Read more... )

About one job every other day shows up, and even though some are not exactly my preference I apply anyway. There MIGHT be a possibility of a temp job but still waiting on that ( Read more... )

Ok, resume reupdated. To kinkos for some personal printing, (should be a quick visit) then to Work Source to see what can be done. Tomorrow I will face the line of hell that is applying for food stamps.

Wish me luck LJ. 

Today was better, I'm still worried about what will be but as I was buying the last half of what we need at the grocery store my cashier was this nice old man. In him I heard Eva ( Read more... )

My friend posted this. I always liked the Story of Persephone... I like this version even better.

"Persephone Lied"

The truth is, I was bored.

My mother blissing ahead of me, rosebuds rising in her footsteps,
And I skulking behind, thinking,
Oh look. She walks in beauty.
Again.

Her power could boil rivers, if she chose.
She doesn’t choose. ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what to write to make it easier to process. I wish that  I could post something all sentimental and understanding and perfectly nostalgic that could be added to the "we miss her but look up" theme that some take when faced with loss ( Read more... )