So lately things have been, whatever. Kadyns been Kadyn and I have been just caring for him, and shopping. Honeslty the only thing I like about the holiday is the the decorating. I dont get along with my side of the family and they made it clear to me that I wasnt invited. So screw it. I will spend my time with Harveys family. They care more about ( Read more... )

So, I have been taking this sleep medication called Sleep MD. I have been taking it to of course help me sleep at night. I have sleep issues. Anyways ( Read more... )

Lately, I feel like I am just walking on glass with everyone. I feel like when I am around people I just shouldn't talk. I am so tired of always being let down and put down. I just want my life to be somewhat "normal". I don't think it will ever be normal again though. I love my son, he is my world! He is growing faster and faster everyday and he ( Read more... )

I officailly hate myself!!! I am a horrible fucking person!!!

I am soo torn up right now. I have so much on my mind, and I really don't want to talk about it. I miss my best friend, my boyfriend, and I miss my old life also. I miss when everything was so easy. I miss being 5. Back when the holidays were so much fun, when santa was suppose to be real. I found out around 5 that he was fake. Oh well.

I come home ( Read more... )

Today was a blah day. I didn't go to sleep till almost 9am, yes i stayed up all night, and I slept until 3. I felt like crap when I woke up and Harvey wanted to go play darts or uno or yatzee and I couldn't find the strength to get out of bed. He got all pissed at me which started this huge arguement, and it ended with me just walking out of his ( Read more... )

But here is an update.

Things have been a little stressful lately. I don't know. My son was back in the hospital. He was having seizures. He woke up from a dead sleep and he was seizureing. So i tried the medication they gave me, and it didn't work at all. So i waited the 5 minutes and called 911. They couldn't get a line or him stable enough to go ( Read more... )

Yesterday we made my flight official. I am going to VA soon. I'm excited, but apart of me isn't. The part that isn't is the part where Kadyn can't go with me. I hate it! It's not even that really, its being so far away from him. If something were to happen i don't know what id do. IM so worried about that. Id never forgive myself for that. I am ( Read more... )

Tomorrow he is buying my plane ticket. Are you serious?I swear im still dreaming. I swear pinch me dammit! I get so see three of the coolest damn people ever!!!! We are going to go party that night too!! HOW amazing! Im soooo stoked! I can not wait! YAY IM excited

so i had an amazing conversation with Donald today. We just talked and talked and laughed so much. He makes me smile so damn much its amazing! I enjoy our conversations, its all i have to live by for now.  I love how he answers hello beautiful, it makes me so happy. LIke i feel like the most specail girl in the world when i hear his vocie. By the ( Read more... )