I really didn't want to cry today but then my grandpa called and said it's been two years since mary lou died. He makes me laugh with his bluntness. But now I'm sitting here crying missing her missing my mom wishing they were here. I have been dreading this day since september 1st. As soon as I see September I think about her and that she died ( Read more... )

Uhhh I miss my mom its a little easier now that time has gone by, some days are better then others today I miss her cause I wish she was here to talk to. I only think its easier because we weren't so close for that span of 10 years. If we were always close and she didn't have a drinking problem I think it would be far worse. I went to grandma and ( Read more... )

uhhh I still can't believe that my mom is gone ( Read more... )

So Jen wanted to be friends again and we were for like a month then she goes off and doesn't talk to me again for 4 weeks..... When tommy and I tried to text her and talk to her she was very cold towards both of us so today is her 4th of july party and we are not going because she hasn't spoken to us. She hasn't text me at all saying can't wait ( Read more... )

so i feel better then I did last time I wrote. People say that you shouldnt push things aside because they will just be harder to deal wtih later but that doesnt work for me. I ether deal with things now or later and the outcome will still be the same. So I have accepted that my mother will never be what I want and she will always be one of the ( Read more... )

Do you believe no one could possible understand how you feel ( Read more... )

So I found out on thursday night my mom has cancer ( Read more... )

you said to me last night that you don't understand why i don't feel good enough and here is an example:

we made plans but because just you, tommy and i are the only ones that want to do it you deside to do something else.

I wasn't good enough tonight

i feel better that i got things off my chest and talked to tara and told her i was sorry and how i felt. I've been sleeping better too cause its all i thought about ( Read more... )

i am bored ( Read more... )